I don't like

Something is dead at home. I don't know what happen. But it was foreseen long ago that it is going to die anytime soon. But why now? WHY?? It so happens that this semester many of my dear lecturers are tech savvy and chunks of my lecture notes are saved in my thumbdrive and also in that once living thing. Frustrating. Irritating. Now, a secretary's job is also much HARDER! I don't know how already. I don't like to keep on asking and asking and receiving and receiving. I know the difficulties. But how now? It's not that I'm demanding......
This is Terrible....

Suddenly this tune keeps playing in my mind and it cannot stop~hehe

Everybody ought to know (3x)
Who Jesus is

Oi!! I want to tell you something!

"God said....I'll show up and take care of you as I promised and bring you back home. I know what I'm doing. I have planned out-plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hoped for.."

Jeremiah 29:11

gila-gila today.....

Feeling so happy today. Molecular Genetics practical is cancelled this afternoon. That means I'm FREE! Plus, today is Thursday and that means I only have ONE more NIGHT to shower at my college and sleep on my not-so-comfortable bed before I head home tomorrow for the weekend! Terrible me. I wonder whether I will be able to cope when I'm posted to a school far,far away from home-for example Sabah.*Gasp*. Oh well, I think I will be OK by then. Now, I'm just pampering myself and making use of this opportunity to enjoy the comforts of home. There is a time for everything. In two years time, I guess I would be ready to face whatever changes that would come into my life. Hopefully. But in the mean time, I'm just looking forward to go home this weekend and meet my darling............Panda The Dog! Yup, Panda is a dog. You can only find this in MY House.

A time of reflection....A time of questioning....

Ephesians 4 : 12-16

In this new year of 2007, how will my life be. Will it be the same as last year? Am I still a babe craving for milk instead of solid food? It's so easy to remain the same person every year and not growing. It's so easy to remain complacent and not be aware of what is happening to my relationship with God. It's so easy to pretend and live a Christian life without examining the depths of the heart-what is actually happening beneath the person that I am in front of people. Is this what God wants me to be? To remain like this forever? How can I go into greater heights with God if I myself am not willing to allow Him to work in me and through me? How can I know God if I don't have the desire to edify and equip myself with His word?

This morning I was pondering on the word 'fullness' or 'full'. Realised that the word 'fullness' appears quite a number of times in the Bible.

John 1:16- And of His fullness we have all received, and grace for grace.

John 15:11- “These things I have spoken to you, that My joy may remain in you, and that

your joy may be full..."

Ephesians 3:19- to know the love of Christ which passes knowledge; that you may be filled

with all the fullness of God...

And then in Ephesians 4:13-....to have the stature of fullness of Christ

Fullness in my life. To have the stature of fullness of Christ. Is my life like this? Or is it just half-full?

After reading Ephesians 4:17, I pondered on the church, my church. It cannot grow if there is no equipping and edifying of the word; and there isn't unity of the faith and knowledge of Christ. I wonder whether all of us really realise this. Are we going to church just for the sake of going? Or being like robots-serving in church without actually realising that we are serving God? Or are we serving but at the same time our relationship with God and people is not made right? Or we are serving but our service is not effective because we are not fully eqipped? Is God happy with me? Is God happy with the church, my church?

My Favourite Pictures

Hidden Beauty


















White
Butterfly














Two very busy bees




















Philip the praying-mantis




























The Ladybird. I Like the contrast
between the colour of the ladybird and the leaf.

terrible.terribl.terrib.terri.terr.ter.te.t.And it's not terrible anymore

2 posts in 1 day...

As usual, I get quite frustrated when it comes to registering my subjects online. Again I am disappointed with Universiti Malaya's registration system especially the Science (Biology) and Education faculties. Again I couldn't get the subjects I wanted because they are already full and I'm still short of 5 credit hours. I still don't understand how come the places can be filled up so fast even though I register right on the dot, 9:00am. Now I have to go and register manually, and hope that the lecturers are kind enough to let me and others in. Well, on the plus side, no MATHEMATHICS this semester! I'm looking foward to studying Biology. I'll be taking General Microbiology, Basic Genetics, Pencemaran Alam Sekitar. This one I don't quite like...pollution of our surroundings..how interestering :-( Hope I can register molecular genetics manually.

Well, another new year, a new semester, with so much of unexpectations. There is nothing I can do but to look forward to a new start and put my entire trust in God.

guide me by your truth
and instruct me.
You keep me safe,
and I always trust You...Psalm 25:5

Few more days and I will end my choir camp. It's not actually a camp for me because I come back on the weekends. And then there is Christmas and everyone will be coming back home. Hope to really enjoy the remaining two weeks of my holidays before the semester starts. Will be quite busy with Christmas-dancing(not easy), playing along with other 2 pianists for my church choir. Well, all will be well. I'm a litttle excited.

*see the post below*

High Hopes

High Hopes

Next time you're found, with your chin on the ground,

There's a lot to be learned,

So look around.

Just what makes that little ol' ant,

Think he'll move that rubber tree plant, (in this case, mango tree plant)

Anyone knows an ant can't move a rubber tree plant.

But he's got High Hopes,

He's got High Hopes,

He's got high apple pie in the sky--hopes,

So any time you're getting low,

'Stead of letting go,

Just remember that ant.

Oops!There goes another rubber tree plant, (..or, mango tree plant)

A problem's just a toy balloon,

They'll be bursting soon,

They're just bound to go 'Pop!'

Oops!There goes another problem, kerplop!

Kerplop!

This is one of the songs which my residential college will be singing for the choir competition. Quite a cute song, yet so meaningful to people who always seem to have loads of problem on their back. I like that picture which I took on the mango tree in front of my house. I didn't know the tree is infested with that longish-thingy creature. It's actually a long shell, and there is a worm carrying it. Imagine seeing this thing move on the tree. It looks wierd. It looks like a snail but I really have no idea what it is.

Monday ramblings...

I'm in my second week of holidays and I'm feeling tired. So many things are going on. Started attending my residential college's choir camp last week. Skipped today because I have dance practice later for my church's Christmas Evangelistic Night. Haven't danced for ages and I feel so rusty. Last week, I must say, I had a fruitful week when I was back in college although I was alone in my room most of the time when we were not practicing the songs. Imagine-no TV, computer to keep me occupied. But I had a good time being alone. I had all the time to read the biography of James Hudson Taylor that I borrowed from Kim Cheng, do some journalling (stopped about a year later after Residential Bible School...teribble me) and take pictures of my good friends at college-the monkeys that frequently visit my room window in the evenings (Mike gave me a second hand digital camera, what a good timing!) The Monkeys aka My Personal Entertainers. I think they are so adorable!

It's so fulfilling to be alone with God, and reflecting about life and on His Word. I feel that the busyness of the past semester and whatever problems/stress that I faced had made me out of tune with so many things especially to know that God is in control of the circumstances that happen around me. Reading about the life of Hudson Taylor has also taught me many valuable lessons particularly in submitting my whole self to God and to allow Him to use me in different ways. Well, I haven't finish reading this book. Will probably write more about it later.

So many things on my mind and I need to get them done during the holidays:

-Visit the Hal Ehwal Pelajar office to get the Easter approval done. I hope I will have time to go during one of the afternoons when there isn't any choir practice. Pray that the university will approve and that the venue will be available. I want to get it done by this week.

-Practise choir songs. There are 4 songs that I need to play for the choir. 4 SONGS!! The competition is on 7th of January.

-Christmas dance.

-Submit the photos for the photography competition which Suit Lin kindly signed in for me a few months ago because of a picture that I took in Camerons. Again, what a good timing for Mike to give me that camera :-)

Well, before I end I'm going to make another cryptic statement that will make everyone especially my dear sister nuts!

After many, many months of not talking, I managed to talk to Myfriend about something concerning...something...purely business. Well, although the conversation was about 1 minute or so, at least this is a tiny, weeny improvement after many months . Sigh...

Truly my soul silently waits for God,

From Him comes my salvation,

He is my rock and my salvation,

He is my defense,

I shall not be greatly moved

Psalm 62:1-2

They will call us cikgu.....

Suit Lin, Jia Hui, The-Owner-Of-This-Blog
Felt like putting this picture here. Imagine my life in uni without these two SWEET monkeys. Life would be so dull and...different. What can I say, their 'crazyness' is

super highly infectious!

:-)

Your Dominant Intelligence is Musical Intelligence

Every part of your life has a beat, and you're often tapping your fingers or toes. You enjoy sounds of all types, but you also find sound can distract you at the wrong time. You are probably a gifted musician of some sort - even if you haven't realized it. Also a music lover, you tend to appreciate artists of all kinds. You would make a great musician, disc jockey, singer, or composer.

What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?

A disc jockey? That would be cool! :-) .....hehehe

Death...

Today was yet another day. With everyday passing by so fast, you just wonder what is going to happen next. With life being so uncertain, what is everyone hoping for? What do we expect is going to happen to us in the future? I know I have hope in Christ and I know that my life is secured. Even so, I still wonder what is going to happen next. All of us are aiming for something in this life-success, happiness, goals, dreams...Will all of this matter one day when you know you are between life and death? You know you have achieved something but will it all matter? Are we doing things that have eternal value?

One funeral...and it got me wondering...

Yesterday I attended a funeral of a Datuk who's also my ex student's father and my friend's uncle. Nobody expected him to go suddenly especially at this age of 47-48 years. He was a well known person, who held many high positions and it was no surprise to see many people turning up to his funeral. Everything he has done and all the titles that he has, will it all matter now? Anyway when someone has passed away, even if I know or don't know that person well, I always wonder how will I feel when someone closest to me passes away. I start to think about my parents and I'm afraid. But when I look at them, I can see that they are not afraid of death, because they know that there is life after death. They even talk about it now and then. Just now when I took my Panda out for her daily beauty walk(..hehehe), I saw two of the Datuk's children cycling. They seemed fine. I was just wondering how close they were to their father but I guess how close or how distant you are with someone, you will still feel some kind of loss.

Adelene's Bible...

Oh well.....on another note, today I dropped my less then a year old Bible (given by my sister on my birthday) again. I don't know how many times have I carelessly dropped it and today it was not the usual kind of 'drop', I dropped it beside a puddle of muddy water while I was walking to church. You see, at the same time I was also holding the umbrella, the car keys and my handbag, and the Bible just slipped. Thank God the whole Bible didn't imerse itself inside the water and miraculously only a tiny wee bit of it got wet.Phew!No major/minor damages to my Bible. Careless me....

Maths...and...Geology

I'm a Maths atheist! :-) Had 3 days of pure torture. Sat for my Maths papers and some of the questions ere like greek to me. Throughout the semester I was forced to believe in the Maths solutions, equations and theorems created by no-life people who didn't have other better things to do than. Hah! Idiots! :-p I still have one last Geology paper to go on the 22nd. Hopefully I can still remember how all the rocks, minerals and fossils look like. Gosh!

That person...
I'm so tired of guessing and wondering the 'unknown' that has happened that has caused you to be like this! It's almost end of the year. How long more?How long?

Exams starting on Wednesday
Feeling as if I've lost someone
2 in 1
How am I?

WOW!

BEAUTIFUL!

This evening when I looked out from room window, I saw how beautiful the sky was.It had orange, purple, grey and blue hues that made it very nice to look at. I said to myself hey, it's such a beautiful evening, I shouldn't waste it by sitting in my room studying stupid maths.hehe.After all, because of the haze it's been quite a long time for the sky to be clear. So I decided to take my doggy out for a walk and enjoy the evening. And then, suddenly....as I was looking up into the sky....I saw a swarm of migratory birds about 100 of them at quite a close range. They were all heading south. These are not the usual small birds but BIG, BIG birds and they formed a VERY BIG V. The sight had a majestic feel to it because of how the birds were flying...slow and majestic. It's was truly a beautiful sight that I've never seen before in my life....If I were to compare to all the beautiful scenaries that I've awed and admired at...this cannot be compared to what I've seen today. Truly amazing....

I thank and praise God for His beautiful creation. So beautiful......

Oh sing to the Lord a new song! For He has done marvelous things!

....to be continued will never be continued

Wow.....my 'to be continued' has taken forever. Thousand apologies to those who have waited patiently for me to sambung my 'to be continued' post. Well, I guess I wont continue it anyway. It's been too long already. One month? Sometimes I just don't feel like blogging because there are a lot of things going through my mind. I'm so tempted to put everything in my blog but everything is so personal. I'd rather just tell everything to God or to my closest friends. You know lar, once I've spilled the beans, my abang will ask me thousand and one questions.hahaha

Yesterday I attended my church member's wedding. (More here) It's been a while since I've attended one. It was very lovely. I especially like the decorations because I'm sure you won't see it in any other weddings. Our choir sang two songs and we sang 'God causes all things to grow' by Steven Curtis Chapman. Such a meaningful song. And then after that the bridegroom sang 'I will be here' also by StevenCC. My favourite song!.....Well, it was a joyous occasion. At least this week hadn't been so boring. I'm so sick and tired of studying maths.I miss BIOLOGY!...Finals is in 2 weeks time. BLEHHHHH!

Still thinking about something though. It's so strange when you don't expect some things to happen, happen. It's especially strange when some people approach me and tell me some things that I would never would have expected them to say. It's not bad. No. The feeling is nice but irritating. Well, in two days two people told me a similar thing. How strange and ironic. This whole situation adds on to the months old confusion and conflict that I'm facing.

Sorry to keep you wondering :-)

Got to go study maths. How does one learn how to enjoy maths? I've no idea. :-( stupid maths...

The weekend that was...

It's been a while since I've blogged. There were many attempts to blog but these attempts were often hindered by unforseen curcumstances. My computer(or to be exact, my brother's old computer :p ) has mood swings, she's getting old you know. She can decide to freeze at any moment she likes. So there I was typing out my post and my dear computer decides to take a break by freezing.BLEH! I turn off the computer and re-start it and then I've to type all over again. Forget it....

It was one eventful weekend I must say. On Friday night my YF committee spent a whole night sharing and speaking out our thoughts. We were all in a wooden house(part of the church) adjacent to the church and the wind was so strong and it started to rain heavily. The setting was nice but it was so cold! (You can only get this atmosphere in Banting..hehe)So there we were, sitting in a circle, ready to listen to each other's sharing. Some were very direct. Some spoke the truth.Some spoke with tears. Others shared their burden and concern. For me, I felt that it was the time for me to tell the truth. The truth of what I was facing all these years. I've never actually told many people about this, maybe one or two. It was hard though....Hard to get my words out of my mouth. But I still said it... It's hard to serve in a Chinese speaking church where the English speaking members are the minority. Many a times I have wondered why I'm still in that place and why I still choose the serve there although the challenges are to many for me to bear. But as I ponder further, I realise that God is still able to use me in that place although adapting and fitting into the situation around me can be quite tough. How can I say no when God calls me? I've been praying for a long time about this and as the years go by I feel God's assurance to me....

To be continued...

Got a class to attend....

Still wondering.....

The situation was so awkward.
I sensed someone was standing behind me.
I turned.
I became tongue-tight. I didn't know what to say.
Yet there is so much to say.
I turned back and continued with my work.
Wonder when everything will be normal again.
I'm trying my best but I hope you will do the same thing also.

*Sorry for the cryptic post....

Aimless...

Had the most terrible sleep last night.
Still recovering from my terrible flu..
Feeling that life is so hard but still still have to keep going...
Wondering why there is no reply...
Wondering what is going to happen next...
Wondering why it's so hard right now...
Feeling drained and frustrated now but God assures me everything will be alright..keep walking...

What-did-I-do-on-2-5-September-2006?

Came back from PKV's THE Camp, 2B2C, Building Bridges, Crossing Cultures three days ago. It was my first camp that I was really looking forward to go to because I knew most of the people who were going and this people included my close friends. Camp was great! It was a time for me to think through certain issues-myself, PKV, friendships, my relationship with God...the serenity and stillness of Camerons was something that I really missed a lot.

Building Bridges, Crossing Cultures...

This reminds me that I need to put away whatever self-centeredness that may have been hindering me from reaching out to my friends. Sometimes I give myself so many excuses-ex: I don't know how, I don't have the time, it might affect my friendship with them...etc. It's easy for me to mix with other races...it has never been a problem...but since coming to UM, I find it hard to maintain a close friendship with people outside PKV. Most of it is just on-the-surface kind of friendship, nothing more. God has given me the chance to stay in college for another year, to join the choir, to be room mates with 2 bumiputeras...will I use this opportunity to reach out to my friends? Will I be a brother keeper to my friends in need and not only to people that I feel I have much in common with?

Friendships....

I'm so blessed to know many people in PKV especially the pretty sisters :-) I really treasure this friendship that we have and truly, each one of you have touched my life in your own special way. May each one of us continue to spur and encourage one another in the Lord despite of the many ups and downs that we face each day.

Pictures courtesy of Mun Yee

All the pretty sisters[suit lin and adele are not in the pic! :-( ....] excluding Tuxoon and Johnson....and Sam? :-)

ooh...I'm so cold. help! help!...hehe

Kim Cheng..a woman of great courage. Thanks for everything!

Mun Yee...do you know that my first impression of you in my 1st year was that you are a very garang person..haha..well although I thought you had the garang-ness kind of look but now you are such a warm person to be with. I thank God that I have known a person like you..

Wong Jia Hui...Despite of the many ups and downs, God still never fails to make your life so colourful and meaningful...look to Him always, your help comes from the Lord, the Maker of heaven and earth...thanks for all the help and encouragement, and also for lending your ears to listen to my laments and complains..hehe

My head is blank...can't stop 'achooing' and coughing....grrr....I'm too blur to write anymore...got lots to write about..what Ive learnt, What I did....For more on THE camp, do visit here and here. I'll probably continue another day when the grey clouds have moved away and when the sun is up...