Remembering Camp Cam

7 km walk to Boh Tea plantation
Jason, my escort.hehe.

When things are looking down Lord, help me to look up to You!

Nonsence Words

2 weeks ago. We(me, SL and JH) were quite tickled with some funny words we found in Reader's Diegest-codswallop, brouhaha and ballyhoo. That's why, we now occasionally use these words in our conversations. hehe. So, during my attempt to find some more funny words (yeah, I'm very free today), I came across a funny poem with funny words in it. Some people have nothing else better to do than to invent silly and 'nonsence' words.

OK. Now, follow me and read this peom aloud!

Jabberwocky

'Twas brillig, and the slithy toves
Did gyre and gimble in the wabe:
All mimsy were the borogoves,
And the mome raths outgrabe.

"Beware the Jabberwock, my son!
The jaws that bite, the claws that catch!
Beware the Jubjub bird, and shun
The frumious Bandersnatch!"

He took his vorpal sword in hand:
Long time the manxome foe he sought—
So rested he by the Tumtum tree,
And stood awhile in thought.

And, as in uffish thought he stood,
The Jabberwock, with eyes of flame,
Came whiffling through the tulgey wood,
And burbled as it came!

One, two! One, two! And through and through
The vorpal blade went snicker-snack!
He left it dead, and with its head
He went galumphing back.

"And hast thou slain the Jabberwock?
Come to my arms, my beamish boy!
O frabjous day! Callooh! Callay!"
He chortled in his joy.

'Twas brillig, and the slithy toves
Did gyre and gimble in the wabe:
All mimsy were the borogoves,
And the mome raths outgrabe.

You can get the meaning of some of the words here

Ah, enough of nonsence today.

Hehe.

Last week, me, JH and SL went to our Ethics lecture and we faced that mean substitute lecturer. We had to combine with her class because our own lecturer was away. It was a dreadful experience I can tell you. You'd wonder how did UM appoint her as a lecturer in the first place. And of all lecturers, they had to choose a really un-ethical lecturer to teach us Teaching Ethics. It's so hard to respect this kind of person. Once she even mentioned a few racist remarks that caused a few students to leave the lecture hall. I too was a bit angry when she said it.

So while she was babbling codswallop in front, the 3 of us had our own private conversation.

Some artsy-fartsy stuff we did. My drawings. JH's colourings. SL provided the coloured pens. You know, the lecturer was using a Pendidikan Moral book to teach us!Aiyoyoh....

The only good thing that the lecturer did to the 3 of us was 'inspiring' us to order McD's after class. At one point she was talking about food(yeah, what has food got to do with ethics?) and so it was decided that SL shall dial 1300-13-1300 outside the lecture hall and order for the 3 of us. It was to be delivered to the Faculty of Education, UM. And so after class, we waited for 45 mins and I tell you, seeing the red McD's man on the motorbike was such a joy!

Me talking to Me.

Spent my 2 days at home shaking my legs, and letting time while away. Plus the weather which is cloudy-rain-cloudy-rain helped me sleep like a log which I've not done so for a long,long time. Ya rite.

Had that 'wondering' session with my self just now. When I look at some people whose lives seem to be so colourful, I tend to envy them a bit. They get to go to so many places and experience new things every month. And here I am stuck in one place the whole year and most of the time I am just going through the motions. So while I was in a state of discontentment, I had a super short conversation with myself

DissatisfiedAJW:

Why lar am I stuck here. Look at them, get to go here, go there, got lots of money. Somemore spend money like nobody's business. Life is so blissful. So colourful.

SatisfiedAJW:

Why are you complaining? What's the point of envying others? Be contented with what you have and live the life God has given you. You can't get everything you want you know. What do you mean by blissful and colourful? Isn't yours like that also?

DissatisfiedAJW:

Yes, of course I envy them! Why? Cannot ah? I am complaining because...errr...I feel like it. Suddenly I'm wondering why some things are just not fair. Y'know, some things don't happen to me but happen to them.

SatisfiedAJW:

Ah, you complainer. That's what Mum always calls you. When are you going to change? Why is there a need to complain? You have all the essential stuff. There wasn't a time when you didn't have money to buy the important things that you need. Be contented with what you have! So you measure your happiness by the things you have, is it? Don't! Ei brat, don't always complain and whine lar. Be thankful and grateful for what God has given you! And it's not good to envy others, y'know.

DissatisfiedAJW:

Ya....you got me this time.

***

Yup, I didn't have anything else better to do than to talk to myself. Sometimes I need to knock my own head and correct a few things in me.

On your mark, get set...GO!

Whee~Breezing through. I have a few minutes to warm up this chair before I go for my next class.

I'm always in a hurry to use the computer in the Science Computer Lab and I ain't got time to blog as much as I want. But to tell you, I thank God for the past few days because I've been quite happy for no apparent reason. It's so unusual of me. But to know that my joy comes from my Lord makes me have the courage to live each day!

Sidetrack:I can't stand the codswallop overflowing from my Teaching Ethics lecturer. What a donkey she is. Really. And now I probably have to see her again because she is substituting my actual Teaching Ethics lecturer who is away.

Codswallop=nonsence

Home sick. Missing my family. Feeling satisfied. Feeling happy. Had a great time during the Leaders' Retreat. The book 'The Exile' has exiled somewhere. It's lost and I'm so dead.Gosh!

Will write more when I feel like it.

Just wondering who you are? Yes, YOU!

I miss my Panda. My dog.

What's happening...

• From A to B then now to C. Room is on C floor, the lowest floor. Now, I don't waste time and energy climbing up the stairs, walking to the makan hall, walking to the grocery stall downstairs. Everything is super near.
• I miss the monkeys. The only 'monkeys' I see outside my window are the ones who can talk and drive. So not interesting.
• I want July to pass by quickly. So many things to do.
• I'm a bit disappointed with myself when it comes to handling people and taking up responsibilities. It's a problem I face at the moment.
• Calculus 2. Oh dear....
• I have nice roomates. I made a commitment during Camp Cameron to be close to my roomates and choir mates by taking time to know them better and not always isolating myself.
• I want to do well in my subjects.
• So fast I'm a 3rd year student. Everything is moving so fast.
• I want to make right decisions that are good. Again I'm reminding myself this.
• To always remind myself that God preserves my life, and He always watches my coming in and my going out.
• Can't wait for The Mum to come back home from Australia. One more month to go.

Upside Down

Sigh.Classes will start in less than 12 hours time. Haven't slept yet. Tomorrow I'm going to suffer. Not enough sleep. Went to uni today. Put my things into my new room. Came home. Just now I was so frustrated with Microsoft Office. Head so blur. Everything so blur. I lost something and it's not mine. Ahhh!! Silly hands went and put it somewhere. Checked every inch of the house. Couldn't find it. Sigh!!!! My mind is topsy turvy.

Things will be better tomorrow. I hope so.

Good Night..or rather Good Morning.

Be kind!

Put on a smile and they'll be kind to you!

It's so nice to meet kind people especially when you really need them to do something for you.

Today I went to UM to send in a letter for approval of our MSK posters and handbills. Kind person number 1-En Hashim. He's always been so helpful to me dor the past 6 months. Today he told me that he's a bit fed up with En. Ambi, the fellow who approves all our meetings and projects. Fed up because En. Ambi simply scolded him for no reason. All En Ambi needs to do is say yes or no to the projects, he needn't have to be so nasty and simply scold people.

Then, I went to Econs Fac to hand in the letter for the venue. Kind person number 2-The Clerk. Well, although I didn't expect to hear the dreadful news from her, but at least she told it to me in a kind manner. We are not allowed to use the hall for MSK because apparently they have converted it into a temporary lecture hall. What nonsense. Anyway, her kindness did help me ease my nerves...a bit...a wee bit..good thing she didn't give that nasty and strern look at me which I really dislike the most. I had to think of another alternative to where we can have MSK in 3 weeks time. Then I went to Akademi Pengajian Melayu and there I met my final and most 'kindest' person.

Kind person number 3-Kak Mas. I've never been to APM before and going there today did make me feel a little nervous. Thank goodness my friend was with me and she had a car. If not, I had to walk all the way up that hill to get there. At the office I saw a Malay guy and inquired about their hall, whether it was available or not. Then he called for Kak Mas to come. She's so nice and...kind... and was willing to check the dates for me. Ah, I felt a wave of relieve when she told me that the hall was available. She even offered to take us to the hall and have a look at it.

People-you can either hate them or like them. But today I really appreciate the kindness of people, what more a stranger to me.

So, put on a smile, and they will be kind to you!

(of course there are the nasty and hard headed people who don't give a care whether you smile or not. Well, all I can say is, bother them!)

Busy. Busy. Busy. I can't wait for the month of July to be over. But who knows, I might be busier after July. Oh well, tomorrow will worry for itself. Next month will worry for itself. Live by the day! The weekend was quite an uncomfortable one. With many things on my mind, many things to do and the super hot weather have caused me to be a little bit nasty to my sister when she came down for the weekend. Sigh. Things happen so fast that you don't have time to think straight and rationally.

I thank God for helping me go through yesterday and today. I thank Him for the smooth flow of the Orang Asli Sunday School. I'm so happy that the children were attentive to what I was teaching and one of them were even helpful in carrying my things. And as they smiled and waved goodbye to me, it makes me want to do more for them. I know somewhere in their heart of hearts, they are seaching for truth and peace that they can find nowhere in this world, except in God.

A 'Sighing' Girl. Yes, this is the new name I give myself for the week because I've been sighing all the time. Sighing to myself. Sighing to God. It's very bad, I know. But I will try not to sigh a lot and will trust in God. Ok. I will do it instead of trying.

But the seed on good soil stands for those with a noble and good heart, who hear the word, retain it, and by persevering produce a crop. Luke 8:15

I was sharing to my CG yesterday on the parable of the Sower and it reminded me about myself, how I treat God's word. Yeah, I often read and I hear but I've not been really retaining it in my life and what more persevering to produce a crop. Oh well, this is something that I need to improve on.

***

One more week of holidays. Hope I can enjoy it to the fullest before Uni starts. What am I going to do this week, besides CF stuff?...hmmmm..

Sigh.I don't know how. Sometimes it's hard to live a contented life.It's always about wanting more than what I have. The first quote from the previous post should remind me about something.Sigh. Yes, I've been sighing a lot lately.

They said...

If you cannot get what you like,
why not try to like what you get?

Every man should keep a fair-sized cemetery
in which to bury the faults of his friends.

There is nothing progressive about being pig headed
and refusing to admit a mistake.

The blast of temptation struck down the leaves,
but the root stood fast

I like surprises.Good ones.Not bad ones. :-|

Finally I'm finished!...well, not quite actually.Sigh.
...

Reading the book 'Daddy-Long'Legs' by Jean Webster was so refreshing like fresh air. It's something different from the usual books that I read. I'm the person that likes to read letters(but not write one..hehe) and this book is just perfect because the whole book is on the letters of Judy Abbot to Daddy-Long-Legs. And the feeling of finding out at the at end of the story that Daddy-Long-Legs is actually Master Jervie is so...nice...!

"It isn't the big troubles in life that require character. Anybody can rise to a crisis and face a crushing tragedy with courage, but to meet the petty hazards of the day with laugh--I really think that requires spirit."

"It's the kind of character that I'm going to develop. I am going to pretend that all life is just a game which I must play skillfully and fairly as I can. If I lose, I am going to shrug my shoulders and laugh-alsi if I win."

...

My hati still feels one kind.Sigh.

Aiyohhhhhhh!

Hati saya rasa lain macam :-/

amessypost....

I realised I don't blog the way I did many, many years ago. Last time I could I type a lot of words here because I knew not many(bordering to nil) people would read it but now I've become so conscious because so many people(well, not so many, but I know it's always more than nil..hehe)reads it including The-Brother-In-Law!...hehehe....

Today was my first time handling the Orang Asli Ministry, since Mum has already gone to Australia. Whoa, it was not easy I would say and now I have greater respect for my mum(hehe..) because she's the one who does most of the job by herself. She always tells me to have faith in God, always. And always rely in His strength and power because we can never do it by ourselves. And now I can see how she's able to do it every week without fail and she's already 62 years old.

It was a bit tough for me because I had to speak in Malay and my Malay is so rusty and broken. Oh dear, have to start polishing it....It was nice to see the smile on those little children and the naive look on some of their faces. I just hope and pray that these kids would commit their lives to the Lord and know that He is their Lord too.

The past week...

• Few things were troubling me because I decided to finish up doing some CF stuff, and I've not done so. My brain was blank and I couldn't think. There's so much to think about, so much to plan but at times I felt a bit lost. I don't have much time....
• I think I've gotten attached to Baby Enoch..hehe...he's so cute especially when he smiles and chuckles as if he understands what we're saying to him. And now he doesn't mind me carrying him! Oh, and it's so satisfying putting him to sleep...
• My goodness, yesterday I put Debbie's napkin terbalik..as in the back was front and the front was back.Oops! And she slept all the way through like that until her daddy noticed it. Oops! So much of me being her good aunty and babysitter..hehe
• Has been crazy-my thoughts about the future...sigh...

Now I'm off to Klang Jaya Gospel Hall Family Dinner with my dad. Who will I meet? Who will I talk to?

Paul:
And this I pray, that your love may abound still more and more in knowledge and in all discernment,
that you may approve the things that are excellent, that you may be sincere and wothout offense till the day of Christ.

O Lord, I pray that I make right decisions that are good.

To work! To work!

Got loads to do.

Got so much to think about.

Come on you!

Get up from this chair and start working!

Will be babysitting for another 3 more weeks but at the same time I've got to do a lot of CF stuff.

Oh dear.....I think I'm at lost at the moment.

O Lord, help me organize my thoughts and make them into action!

Many sighs....

So many things on my head at the moment. This thing. That thing. The other thing. And yes, that thing too. Not to forget a certain thing bugging me also. Oh, and I've to finish doing some things soon. So many things.

Tired. Tired. I like babysitting my nephew and neice. Maybe I'm not used to it. But I'm comforted by the little joys I get everyday.

I'm really not in the mood to arrange my timetable for the next semester. No mood at all.

Mum's going to Australia for 2 months. My goodness.

Tomorrow have to go help my mum in the Orang Asli Ministry. I've to take over while she's gone. I've to go every Saturday. It will be my first time.

I'm praying for my God to set my heart right and straight in certain things. I've strayed a little.

"Do you trust me?", my Lord asks me...

"You still got no boyfriend ah?", a certain church aunty always asks me this question...and today her voice was so clear in my head. Donkey lar.....

Yes, my mind is very berserabut now. I'm going to sleep.....

This picture makes me laugh especially when I see Joshua's hands on Yew Kong's head.

Camp Cameron 2007

To that someone who asked me why I never update my blog, nah, here is a brand new post for you! And I'll be seeing you tomorrow. Apa-lah you... :-)

So I'll be talking about Camp Cameron 2007. It's been more than one week since I came back for Camerons. Ah, I miss that place so much. Oh how I wish my house is up there in the highlands. I still suffer from a minor degree of post camp sickness. I'd be thinking of what we were doing at this time during camp and I'd end up feeling a little bit blue.

• I miss the lame jokes and laughters of my family members. My Grandpa Joshua always made us laugh a lot with his lame and sometimes not-so-lame jokes.hehe...
• I miss both my Grandmas, although I'll be seeing Grandma Kim Cheng quite often :-)
• I miss my Papa Chee Khoon who always begins his sentence by saying the phrase 'they say ah..'.We would wonder who are 'they'?
• I miss the fried rice cooked by my family members using the leftover food. Fried rice will never taste the same again.
• I miss expressions on Sundays where my chalet 8 gals and I would go and watch movie.
• I miss my room-mates:Eveline, Lee Na and Yue Min. I miss the 'romantic light' Eveline always switches on before all of us sleep.hehe...
• I miss teasing Aunty Nhãn and I miss her cheekiness that always made me laugh. I miss the conversations we had about our lives, our culture, and the struggles we face in both our countries.
• I miss all the sessions we had during camp. I especially miss the Wordilicious Investigators on Philemon and Jude. The study on these 2 books reminded me on so many things. Bible Study has become more interesting to me now.
• I miss the nature walk! This is my first time enjoying hiking after many previous hikings.No pressure at all!
• I miss killing the flies! Oh, I'm an expert in it I must say. Killing flies is so satisfying and it's quite therapeutic you know. You should try it also!hehe..
• I miss the quietness and serenity of Cameron Highlands.
• I miss sitting on the steps of my chalet, looking at the hill in front of me and reflecting on so many things

So many things that I miss....

Yes, there is a time for everything. A time to experience the present moment and a time to remember the past. I've gained a lot from Camp Cam. It was a time for me to look at certain issues in my life and to come face to face with the hidden truths that I've taken for-granted for a long time. It's good that I deal with these issues, the sooner the better. Life's not easy for me. It may seem to be otherwise, but the truth is I struggle a lot. And these struggles are with people around me and this eventually lead to the struggles I face with myself as a person.

I was quite scared on the last day of camp. Yes, coming face to face with the issues of my life is not as hard compared to coming face to face with reality. Coming back home means that I need to do the things that I've committed to do once I leave camp-improving relationships, especially with my parents. It's not easy yet I thank the Lord for giving me courage to take the first step(during camp). And I pray that the many steps I take after that will bring blessing and joy to my parents and siblings as well.

Although we have met only for 3 weeks and it will be a long time till we meet again, I find it amazing how people can inspire and encourage one another within that short span of time. A group of people coming from different directions, we meet at the crossroads of our lives, we teach and encourage one another, and now each one of us are continuing on our journey at different directions.

I thank God for the abundance of life that He gives so freely to each one of us!

Give me life in Thy ways, O Lord!

Hola!

Long time no updates. Yes, I came back many, many days ago.

Lazy. Lazy. Lazy.

Will write more when I'm not lazy.

Want to type something now but won't. Sleepy. Sleepy or lazy?

Have to get up early tomorrow.

Going to play piano for someone's wedding. Yikes. Wedding march and recession. Gasp!

Pray that my fingers will not panic, my dear little fingers.

I saw weird things today. This is one of them.

:-)

Oh dear, I've to quickly type this. Got to sleep soon!

I knew I had lots to say the past few days and I wanted to write about so many things but it was sheer laziness that prevented me from doing so. For example I wanted to say that I realy,really like Clay Aiken. I think he's the best male singer from American Idol, far better than Blake or Phil or even Chris from this year's AI.That Ruben Studdard shouldn't have won in the first place. And he's so funny! I really laughed a lot till my tears came out when I was watching him on Youtube.

And another thing I wanted to write was about hornbills. About three years ago,I took a few photos on some hornbills that visited my housing area. Hornbills! And you thought you'd only see them in Sarawak or at a zoo. Well, I've scanned some the pictures that I took from an analog camera. Cool eh? They do occasionally fly around this area. Don't ask me why.

Next thing that I wanted to write was on Mother's Day. There's so much to say about my mother. I've learnt a lot from her although I don't really say it to her about that (I know I should). One thing which she(and my dad also) inspires me is on godliness, of how her relationship with God is clearly seen in her life and in the words that she speak. I know I'm a person of few words(hehe..), but I really appreaciate what she has done for me. Although I don't say it but I do really mean it. And I do feel bad(and guilty too) whenever I've hurt her feelings. I try not too say or do something wrong but sometimes(most of the times) it just happens suddenly and out of control. Well, I still pray and ask God to help me be a better daughter. I really do :-)

I love you!

my mother+miniature ajw

I'm in such a hurry to sleep because I'll be away for Camp Cameron from tomorrow onwards till 2nd of June. 3 weeks. 3 WEEKS! So, to all you silent and invisible readers of this blog of mine, you can make yourself known (and those whom I really DON'T KNOW who you are..hehe) by writing to me. I like surprises you know :-) You can write to me at this address but I'll be at this place only for 3 weeks.

Neriton,

Lutheran Lakeview Chalets,

31 1/2 miles,

39200 RINGLET,Cameron Highlands.

Goodbye!

Darn it. Seems like a tough decision to make. Should I go or don't go? I just finished printing everything. Should I follow my dad to PJ in approx. 5 hours and go to uni to hand them in, the reports and MSK proposal? That new fellow who approves it is so very forgetful and he has a history of misplacing all my previous proposals and even forgetting about them. It's good to hand it in earlier although we are only required to hand the proposal 2 weeks before the project, and in this case MSK is on 25th of July. It seems better to hand it in June so it won't be easily misplaced and forgotten by that fellow. Should I? Should I go?!

*Continue thinking and praying. Sigh.

*After contemplating for about 15 minutes and looking at the calender a few times, I've decided to go on the first week of June. Sigh. What a tough decision to make.

Monkeys

Oh well, with all the 'hype' and the mixture of emotions that I've went through the past week to the point where my brother called me! Until last week I didn't actually realise that quite a few 'important', 'invisible' and 'silent' people do read my blog. It's not like I want the whole world to know. It's just that I got nowhere else to rant and what I put here is less than 1% of what I actually face and feel.

Just to cheer myself up.

This is Mike the Monkey! First things first. I chose the name NOT because it's my brother's name. The name just popped up in my head as soon as I saw this fellow.Plus, the name Philip the Monkey, or Raymond the Monkey just doesn't sound nice.

You see, staying at Uni can get so dull and boring at times. There were days where I'd stare out my window and just daydream and daydream. And then suddenly, I would find myself staring at a monkey's face just a few centrimetres away.

Sometimes they would bring an inquisitive friend/brother/sister/father/long-lost-brother along which makes it more interesting. Monkeys....I'd say that they're interesting creatures. But some would certainly beg to differ. For example, those who've had a monkey(or few monkeys) making havoc in their room. Oh yeah, I've heard of some terrible and horrifying stories but until I've experience that (I hope not), I would still think that monkeys are an adorable lot.

Hehe.

Now, I've got to attend a camp committee meeting but I won't be attending the camp itself and after that I'll be staying at my sister's place at Sunway for the night. Ah, finally something different.

Today is a terrible, terrible, horrible day. Cried because of a trivial thing but it's much, much more deeper than that. I can't bear to face the after effects. Argh!

The weekend that was.

So I've started my holidays. Two months long! So fast it's my second long holidays in Uni and soon after that I'll be a third year student. Not to keen about that though. It just reminds me that things are going to different in the coming years and I have to start thinking seriously of where I'd want to teach. Actually I've been thinking about it even when I decided to take up teaching. Sabah or Selangor? One place requires a great deal of courage and not so much on the other one. Oh, well. I believe the Lord will show me where to go. Last night while reading a book, I came across a quote by William Carey, 'Expect great things from God. Attempt great things for God'. And I wonder, am I only expecting great things from God and so often not attempting anything for Him?

So fast one year has passed.The past few days I remember how at about this time last year, I was groaning and moaning about the problem I was facing. And all of the sudden there is a recurrence of the emotions that I was going through at that time. But it's not so severe anymore. I've dealt with it once and for all a few months ago. It's just that sometimes as time passes by I tend to look back at what happened and what went wrong. I know it's alright to go through certain experiences including the bad ones. The thing that matters is that I go through it gracefully, knowing that God's love and faithfulness is always perfect. Again I was reminded today(hmm...quite a lot of reminders eh?..hehe) of what Jesus said, 'If you are weary and are heavy laden, come unto Me and I will give you rest'

The past few days I had the opportunity to listen to a Sarawakian Bidayuh pastor who works with the Orang Asli at Pos Iskandar, Temerloh. His wife is an Orang Asli from the Temian tribe. It was truly an eye opener for me, hearing the experiences of a man who grew up the hard way and yet chose to devote his life in serving God. Although his life is so simple without the riches of the world, yet he counts himself so blessed. God takes care of every thing even until the smallest detail. Yes, all of us have been too comfortable with our lives to the point where demandingness has become our trait. Nothing is ever enough for us.

Sometimes a coincidence is just too hard to believe in. The Sarawakian pastor was invited by my church to speak at an evangelistic meeting for the Orang Asli here in Banting. The Orang Asli here are from the Semelai and Mah-Meri tribes. So on Saturday, my mum took them to visit some families. So as they were talking and mentioning names it was found out that some of people know the Pastor's wife's relatives who are in Pahang and they were all so happy to know this. Of all places, in Banting.

Not only that. One of my church members, Peggy, is also a Bidayuh. When the pastor went to my church for worship on Sunday, Peggy recognized him. Hmm? Because both of them attended the same primary school and they lived in the same village. My dad said that when both of them found out about this, it was like two long lost lovers talking to each other. heheh...Yes, of all places, in Banting.

Well, an interesting weekend that was. I even had Jia Hui and Ai Wei come over to my house for the weekend. As usual, no where else to bring them except to the only most happening place here-Morib Beach :-)

Cannot talk.

Early this week, I was tongue tied. Again. After a long time. But why only to certain people? I have so much to say and my brains are processing my thoughts but my mouth just refuses to form them into words. And after that silent moment passes by, I get slightly frustrated and irritated with myself for not being confident enough.

Ah, the complexities of life.

Smart girl.

I left some important Genetics notes at home and had to come back home yesterday.

But it was a good 2 1/2 day stay back at B307. No interruptions of any sort except for the occasional monkey intrusion into our block.hehe..

Typing this in a jiffy....

Finished 2 papers and I'm left with 3 more. I just found out today that tomorrow's paper will be harder than I expected although it's MCQ. Great. Yes, I can do it. 3 more ONLY. I anticipate for what is going to happen after this exam. 2 months of holidays. Yay! Yup, I'm trying to comfort myself but I shouldn't be typing this. Well, I'll be going back to college tomorrow early morning at 5.30 am. All the more I shouldnt' be here. Maybe I'm a little bit stressed about tmr. I've been enjoying the comforts of home and Internet access these past few weeks. Have to go back tmr. Can't help it but have to. Oh well. Will be spending my remaining week at B 307 before I move into C 107 next sem. Yup, First it was A block, then B now it's C block.I don't quite like C block but anyway I should be thankful that I have a place.

Finally, I've been pondering about this lately,

"Oh, that we would recognize God's grace when it comes to us"

Brennan Manning

'The Ragamuffin Gospel'

Ok. Yup, I can face tomorrow and the rest of the week. Yes I can! :-)

Aiyoh. Why is it so hard to remember all the computer jargon? I only have one more day to study for my Komputer Untuk Pendidkan. It's a good thing that this will be(hopefully) my first and last time learning this donkey subject. Haih. Somemore have to remember the computer acronyms. 20 questions on that. When I read some acronyms, other names or meanings come into my mind. I have to re-tune my brains to remember them otherwise. Sigh.

ISA(Industry Standard Architecture)-Internal Security Act
FAT(File Allocation Table)-Gemuk
POTS(Plain Old Telephone System..whoever came up with this)-There will be a POTs conference by FES in October for teachers,lawyers and doctors.
NT(New Technology)-New Testament
POST(Power On Self Test)-The word post office straight away comes into my mind.

Sigh. The song that I'm listening to suddenly seems to be faster than normal. This shows that it's time to sleep now. Brains are going bonkers. Hehe..

Exams are not fun. I can't wait to be a teacher.

Can't wait for exams to be over. As usual.

Mikrobiologi Am-18/4-11.30am
Komputer Untuk Pendidikan-21/4-8.30am
Pencemaran Alam Sekitar-23/4-8.30am
Genetik Asas-25/4-8.30am
Genetik Molekul-28/4-8.30am

This is the nicest exam time-table I have compared to the previous 3 semesters. Last year there was one day where I had to sit for 3 papers and it was a real torture.

Sigh.

So sleepy.

And it's so early.

Always be watchful. Always be prayerful. Always be conscious of God's presence.

Bleh.

I have become good friends with Wikipedia. I don't think I will survive my 'Computer untuk Pendidikan' exam if it's not for Wikipedia.Oh, wait. Who knows if I'll ever survive the exam or not. Stupid abbreviations like 'BIOS', SCSI', 'PCI' are making me sick. Donkeyhead people who invented these words. They could have made it easier for poor people like me to remember. I'm so frustrated. I'm a Biology student not an IT student. Donkeyhead people who suggested this subject to be taken by a poor student like me. As if it will benefit me once I become a Biology teacher.

Simply.

Eyes are half closed or half opened. It's so comforting to hear the rustling of the coconut tree leaves outside my window and at the same time feel the cool breeze touching my face. I decided to stop studying. Couldn't take it anymore for today. Was reading 'The Ragamuffin Gospel' by Brennan Manning. Good book. Eyes cannot take it anymore. Good Night.

Feeling old

This afternoon while lazying on the bed together with the feeling of I'm-so-lonely-and-bored, it suddenly dawned to me I will not be seeing a few people anymore. They have been part of my life in UM for the past two years. We had many(or a few) conversations, laughed together or done things together and now I won't be doing that with them anymore once they graduate. And as the months go by, more people would also leave. Suddenly, I'm overwhelmed by the fact that I'm already half way through in uni, and the time for saying goodbyes has come. Well, it's not that I won't be seeing them again, but things will be not be the same anymore. But one thing that will still remain, is the fact that although we have crossed paths these 2 years(and later 3-4 years), I have been truly blessed through the many lessons that I have learnt from them. It's time to move on. There is a time for everything. A time to say 'Hi' and Goodbye'. A time to meet new people and be impacted by them. A time to remember all that has happened in my life and be grateful as well as thankful.

Two more years to go as an undergraduate. So much more to learn and experience. What has the Lord in store for me? I don't know but my life is in His hands.

Just now I started listening to one song by Phillips, Craig and Dean and I couldn't stop listening. Well, at first the music of the song caught my attention and then I realised how meaningful the lyrics are (this goes to all the other songs that I listen, the music catches my attention first and then only the lyrics...hehe).

When God Ran

Verse 1:

Almighty God, The Great I Am, Immovable Rock,

Omnipotent, Powerful,

Awesome Lord.

Victorious Warrior, Commanding King of Kings,Mighty Conqueror

and the only time,

The only time I ever saw him run,

Was when...

Chorus:

He ran to me,

He took me in His arms,

Held my head to His chest,

Said "My son's come home again!"

Lifted my face, Wiped the tears from my eyes,

With forgiveness in His voice He said

"Son, do you know I still love You?"

(End Chorus)

He caught me By surprise, When God ran...

Verse 2:

The day I left home,I knew I'd broken His heart.

And I wondered then, if things could ever be the same.

Then one night,I remembered His love for me.

And down that dusty road, ahead I could see,

It was the only time,

It was the only time I ever saw Him run.

And then...

He caught me by surprise.And He brought me to my knees.

When God ran... I saw Him run to me.

Bridge:

I was so ashamed, all alone, and so far away.

But now I know, that He's been waiting for this day...

I saw Him run to me,

He took me in His arms,

Held my head to his chest,

Said "My son's come home again!"

Lifted my face,

Wiped the tears from my eyes,

With forgiveness in His voice I felt his love for me again.

He ran to me,He took me in His arms,

Held my head to his chest,

Said "My son's come home again!"

Lifted my face,

Wiped the tears from my eyes,

With forgiveness in His voice He said

"Son"He called me Son.

He said "Son, do you know I still love You?"

He ran to me(When God Ran)

(I saw Him run to me)

And then I ran to Him

(When God ran)

When God ran

Beneath The Cross

Beneath the cross of Jesus
I fain would take my stand
The shadow of a mighty rock
Within a weary land.
A home within the wilderness,
A rest upon the way,
From the burning of the noontide heat,
And the burden of the day.

Upon that cross of Jesus
Mine eyes at times can see
The very dying form of One
Who suffered there for me.
And from my stricken
heart with tears,
Two wonders I confess,
The wonders of redeeming love
And my unworthiness.

Beneath the cross I tremble,
So chastened by His pain for the blood He shed,
For all my sins has purified the stain.
From the darkness,
Mercy's light breaks forth across the sky.
I rise to stand before His cross and lift my hands and cry.

I gladly take, O cross, thy shadow
For my abiding place.
I ask no other sunshine than
The sunshine of His face.
Content to let the world go by,
To know no gain nor loss.
My sinful self my only shame,
My glory all the cross.

By Elizabeth C Clephane. Additional verse

by Deborah Craig-Claar

Pondering

There are some thoughts lingering in my mind and these thoughts cause an uneasiness in me. There are some things that are not supposed to hurt me. I feel that it's childish to feel hurt over these little things. No, they are not supposed to hurt me. Sometimes the mind tells a lot of things, and sometimes these thoughts can be so deceiving. But, as for now, I put away these meaningless thoughts and not allow them to influence my future thoughts and actions. It's worthless, these meaningless and deceiving thoughts.

I pray that my thoughts will be like His. To have His mind.

1st Corinthians 2:16

Oh dear. Tomorrow is my EXAM and here I am typing this sentence.

Donkeyhead. There's so much to read.

One test and one exam this week.

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I don't need to use high levels of cognitive thinking skills to tell me to study 'Cognition in Science Education'. It's pure logic-I must start studying. Exam is on this Friday. Adelene, go and study! :-(

Love

This unconditional and unlimited love is what the evangelist John calls God's first love. " Let us love," he says, "because God loved us first" (1 John 4:19).

The love that often leaves us doubtful, frustrated, angry, and resentful is the second love, that is to say, the affirmation, affection, sympathy, encouragement and support that we receive from our parents, teachers, spouses and friends. We all know how limited, broken and very fragile that love is.

"You are loved. There is no reason to be afraid. In love God created your inmost self and knit you together in your mother's womb" (Psalm 139:13)

Taken from 'In the name of Jesus:Reflections on Christian Leadership

by Henri J. M. Nouwen

Keep a mental and spiritual wastebasket, so that you can discard old ideas. Throw away the bad to get the good, throw away the good to get the better, throw away the better to get the best.

Let Christ stimulate your mind into greater creativity. In Christ you have the most absolutely stimulating force in the universe. He coaxes a summer out of a winter, a bird out of a shell and life out of a dead spirit.

Lord Jesus, Your hand once touched the dead,Your voice penetrated to them and they arose. Do it again-to me. Come and think in me, live in me, love in me and make me a more creative person. In Jesus' name. Amen.

Taken from 'Every Day Light:Treasure for the Heart'

by Selwyn Hughes

If only.....

The Day

Day before yesterday. 26 March.Committee Meeting. 10.30pm. Saw Joyce Kee's white car. Thinking. Couldn't think more. Blind-folded. Touching. Poking. Laughing. Sat in car. Hard car seat.I know. Joyce's car. Went to unknown place. Got down. Walking. Pour powder/flour on head. Heard people laughing. Heard sound of 'kuali'. Don't know where. Someone playing basketball. Went down and up the stairs. 3rd college. Maybe. More poking. More touching.The word 'Panjang'. More 'Panjang'. Even more 'Panjang'. Haiyo. Everything stopped. Blind-fold out. Cake with candles. So many people. Happy birthday! 4th college.

Blind-fold again. Why?! Walked. Sit on Adrian's bike. No way. Kok How's car. Went to unknown place number 2. Got down. Heard sound of water. Walked. Ask so many questions. Word 'Panjang'. Again! Haiyo. Terrible people. Splash water. A little bit. Took pictures. Blind-fold out. Dewan Tunku Canselor. Talked. Jumped. Took pictures. More powder on head.12.ooam.Happy birthday again. The real one. Prayed. I thank God for the day. Go back.

Yesterday. 27 March. Went out with Sister and Dinoj. Dinner.Jalan Gasing. So hungry. Good food! Section 14. TGI Fridays. Dessert. Mud cake. Yummy. Debbie called. Debbie sang a abit. Mike didn't believe I'm out with Sister. Thought with someone else. Apa-lah you. Great time. Laughed alot. I thank God for the day. Again.

Thank you to all of you who called me, sms-ed me, 'tortured' me, took my out for dinner.I feel so blessed, thankful and grateful!

Today-A good news and a sad news

Received an early birthday card from Little Debbie.

This morning, my dad told me that Eric Kirton passed away. I was quite sad. He was quite a well known speaker among the Brethren churches. Though I don't personally know him but I've heard him a few times. The first time was during Residential Bible School 4 years ago and the last time was at a conference in September. I believe he has left a legacy behind and have truly impacted many with God's word.

Once again I'm reminded of our existence here on Earth. Do I really cherish the Salvation God has given? Am I contending the faith that was given to me or am I taking it for granted? This life...am I making full use of it and doing things that have eternal value?

Adelene, stop grumbling and whining. Wake up.

What a kid would say :-)

Feelings and thoughts are all over the place.

Going to become a year older. Prone to have THAT thought. Sigh.

Sungai Gabai

Today my church YF had an outing to Sg. Gabai. It's been a long time since I've followed them for an outing. The last time I went to this place was 7 years ago. So much has changed since then and the saddest thing is, it got dirtier. People just don't seem to care about the cleanliness of this place. But anyway, I enjoyed myself today. It'so different from the usual routine that I face everyday.

This is what I had to endure before reaching the place.

Meng Yee with the small farts :-) The boy with Meng Yee on the lower right picture is so cute! Doesn't he look like a guinea pig? (in a cute way...hehe)
Clockwise from upper left:1. Worship session 2.Those gila boys sliding down 3.On your mark,get set, slide! 4. I call them Tyshu and Chee Sian.

1. Chee Sian+ajw 2.ajw+Mona 3&4. My sibling's sister

Sungai Gabai-Not people pictures

Tyshu and I were taking pictures of the butterflies. There were the big,orange ones, but couldn't take them because(as usual) my camera's battery must always finish at

the time I want to use it the most.

My big feet. Nothing else better to do.

Oh!I was trying to remember the rocks and minerals I learnt last semester. The mineral pyrite is golden in colour. I think the golden colour on this rock is pyrite.Hah!See I'm making full use of my 'karat-ed' geology knowledge.

Reflection on the water

On the way home, we stopped to take pictures of the Semenyih dam. The scenary was so nice and the atmosphere was so quiet and peaceful. So different from the usual busyness I face everyday.Wished we could stay longer though..but couldn't. Ended up using Meng Yee's brother's camera again and I hope to get the pictures from you :-)

Easter celebration@UM-14th March 2007

In the beginning, there were 2 people in front of the miniature houses.And then there were 7 of us....
5 people decided to join us...
Finally...all those buffalos decided to join us!
And we even had a small RBS reunion. Samuel Leong The Lelaki Panjang, Simon, Roger,Puay En, Miss Adele Yeap The PKV treasurer and ajw

People pictures during Easter Celebration

Oh no! We are tearing down the house! :-( The whole gang
We are soldiers/disciples/dancers

Vain gals ;-)

Upper left-With Kat, Upper right-With Mun Siong

Easter Celebration at University of Malaya:14th of March 2007

Last Wednesday was truly amazing. Now, I just pray that the Easter message will continue to speak and inspire those who attended the Easter musical and even to me. I remember not only Christ's death on the cross, but how He has risen and conquered death for a sinner like you and me...and now I have HOPE

"And if Christ is not risen, then our preaching is empty and your faith is also empty....If in this life only we have hope in Christ, we are of all men most pitiable. But now Christ is risen from the dead..."

"But God demonstrates His own love toward us, in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us...And not only that, but we also rejoice in God through our Lord Jesus Christ through whom we have now received the reconciliation"

*Pictures courtesy of ah-loke

-Worship team and tambourine dance--Finale:Resurrection-Cloth dance- -Closing-

-Closing-

Still no pictures on the drama...hope to get them soon!

It is so painful!

Ouch! Is all I can say for the past 2 and a half days. On Wednesday night, just as our Easter night was about to start, I had a terrible sore throat and headache. Yesterday, whole day I was feeling so sick...so Bleh...and today, because of my terrible posture while I was sleeping last night, I woke up with a terrible pain on my right hand. You see, I was too tired that I slept on my right hand most of the night. Probably I was feeling cold and didn't bother to use the blanket to cover myself. Even as I type this, I feel the pain. More pain if I write or even hold a spoon. Playing the piano just now during CG was...err...so painful :-( So, to all of you. Please appreciate the hands God has given you even when you are writing or eating. Never take them for-granted.

Just now I was reading a friend's blog and it reminded me of my previous posts. Some of you (if there is any), and especially my sister noticed that previously my writings were quite cryptic. Well, for obvious reasons I didn't want to make it sound so obvious. If not, you know lar...Mike will then ask me 1 million questions :-) Well, I think I have gotten over it. The situation hasn't gotten better or worst but I thank God that the hard part has gone away-me getting over it,once and for all. Maybe. See, my words are crpytic again. I just can't help it :-)

Ouch! Right hand still hurts...

Within 15 minutes...

I managed to capture this small insects with my camera. I wouldn't have noticed them if I didn't look properly. Come to think of it, this is how we are most of the time. We are so busy with ourselves that we are so often ignorant of what is happening around us.

4 Collages

Flowers in the garden. Leaves

Indians having a Chinese New Year reunion dinner. Can you spot the Chinese? :-) Debbie and I had a posing session.

Random

*Yawn* I'm so bored sitting down here at the computer lab. It's one of the very few days when I can get bored sitting down here, waiting for my next class.

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So many 'happenings' these past few weeks and I'm just plain lazy to tell them here. Many good things happened. Got many blessings from God which I truly am so grateful and thankful for. I've learnt that prayer is not only essential in my life, but it is the only thing that keeps me going. Faced many different situations with people I know and have learnt how to deal with them. So much of learning and reassurance from God. Well, I can say that there was a mixture of so many things that I don't know how to explain them.

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I miss my family. Chinese New Year was a great time because apart from Christmas it is the time when the whole family gets together again. No one knows this, but I don't quite like the feeling once everyone leaves home. It's like a sudden change. From a house filled with people and suddenly it's just me and my parents, and my Panda, and Sumiati. Oh well...

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Yesterday night was so bizarre. I had 2 nightmares.*Shocking!*After the 2nd nightmare (about a death in the family,*gasp!), I suddenly woke up and a few seconds later Mike messaged me saying that WP had just given birth to a baby boy! What a sudden change! Well, I'm so glad for both Mike and WP. Now in total, I have 3 nephews and 2 nieces. :-) Can't wait to see all of them again.

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Easter Night @UM...everyone is so busy with practises and preparations. I've been running here and there meeting people and getting approvals done. One year ago, I didn't/couldn't imagine myself actually meeting people. All this while I have been afraid to speak up or even meet people whom I don't really know but I now I'm so thankful for this opportunity. The feeling of getting things approved is so satisfying..hehe..But truly, it's by God's grace and I've leart and am still learning to really depend on Him in all areas which seem to be out of my control.

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*Yawn*again. Time's up. Got to attend class.