Friday, November 21, 2003

DRASTIC!

Wow, it's been one day! Got up early in the morning to follow daddy to PJ. Then went with him to Midvalley to watch a movie. He saw Basic and I saw Brother Bear. Awesome! Both the outing and the movie which I saw! Brother Bear was fantastic! I almost cried several times! Well, it's been some time since I saw an animated film. Finding Nemo was the last time. Came back home and couldn't wait to watch 'JMillionnaire' plus it was the finale(My beloved country is a bit outdated in the latest entertainment so I can't blame the TV station for not airing this show earlier) Anyway, I'm happy that he picked Zora because she looks decent and innocent. Well, my anticipation has ended and the winner has been chosen but I'm not happy...even after watching the show...I just read from the internet that both of them remain as friends only. Nothing more happened after this show. I think I blame it on the media for not giving them enough privacy and now I really thank God for giving me a normal life to live. What can people actually do if the whole world is watching them? I pity those who have taken part in this show and I feel that it is not right to violate a person's privacy although it may sound glamorous and exciting. I still thank God I'm an ordinary girl,nothing glamorous to expect from me. Is wealth everything? I think this show, which wants us to assume that wealth is not everything, got me thinking that actually people in this world really crave for money!.......sad......

Wednesday, November 19, 2003

Thinking Back...

I don't know why I really enjoy thinking about the events that have happened but I find it depressing at times because I want those events to repeat. But of course, reality doesn't permit it to happen again and life has to still go on. Now, I'm looking back just a few days ago when I attended the FES dinner. Well, I think I had a great time because I saw a friend from RBS and also Uncle Hilmy! I so wanted to see (him) but too bad he didn't turn up or maybe he came but I didn't see him. too bad. Anyway, as I said, I had a great time. I'm proud of Mike because he has been an FES full time worker for a few years. Proud to be his sister although the age gap is quite big but who sees that anyway. It's really nice to tell people especially students whom he work with that I'm his little sister...hahaha....I don't know why...it's that brother sister thingy again....
I just can't wait to enter uni. but I don't want it to come so fast because I still have not decided what degree I want to take! Medicine is out because I just can't stand a doctor's life after looking at Tim's life. A doctor in a family is enough and there's no need for 2! I've been thinking about Genetics and also Forensic Science and also speech therapy[because of Mrs Mike :o) ]but I still don't know what to choose! Well, have to find God's will for me first. Let Him lead the way.

Sometimes I wonder how if a family member or someone I'm scared of...if there is any.. haha...find out about this blog! I have absolutely nooo idea!
At last, there's some sort of improvment in this blog. A bit of colours here and there...hehe.. But again, I've to remind myself that there's more for me to learn. But the problem is, I find that blogging really takes up so much of my time. Remember, there's much more to life than blogging! I guess when life has become pretty boring, no friends around, then only I start posting my thoughts on the computer. My final year end school holidays are still on and I'm quite busy with tuitions and bio projects and of course studying! STPM next year!. Wow, it's been so fast. Life has been passing by so fast and without realising it, I'm going into my twenties!. Of course, that will be in one year time...come to think about it, God has been sustaining my life for more than 18 years. What is His plan for me in the future? Currently, I really don't see myself being an ideal Christian. Of course there's no such thing as an ideal Christian because we are all sinful and are living by the grace of God. I feel that I'm not fulfilling my duties as a Christian because I don't see myself telling my friends the gospel. All I see in myself is a Christian girl, striving to be ahead of others...in her studies...I don't know why...Maybe the time has not come or maybe I'm too blinded by my own interests. Maybe I'm still young. But God doesn't see age as a limiting factor so how am I to overcome this problem in my life?. Maybe, I still need time to grow spritually. I'm not ready to share the gospel to others yet maybe because I feel that I need to learn more about the Bible...and also have more faith in God.

Monday, November 17, 2003

A revival!

Finally, after a long period of absence!. As if lar anyone's going to care about this blog except for me. Posting my thoughts in this blog is very much like me talking to myself and no one else. Except for God. That's for sure. He's everywhere and I'm sure He's smiling at me now. He's smiling at all His children here on earth. Another reason why I feel that posting my thoughts here is like me talking to myself is because no one else is reading it and I still don't know how to add some features here. Well, of course I'm still learning but the whole process is so slow!....why do I even bother?. Is it because I want some recognition for what I'm doing? Is that it?.....

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