Time really flies. In just 3 weeks time I will be facing my first major exam in uni.
Last weekend was quite a busy one for me but I'm so glad I can go back home almost every weekend and serve in my church. I realise that God wants me to serve Him here. Over the past few years serving in my church has been rather difficult for me because of the language barrier and there were times(many times) when I've prayed and ask God why did He put me in this type of situation. I felt so out of place. I shouldn't be here. I should have been elsewhere.

We want things to be so easy.We don't like to face a slightest discomfort in our life. I realised that we can serve God despite of any barriers. He wants us not to be easily distracted by the discomfort or problems that come our way. Just serve. I serve God not only because I love Him but because He first loved me. I serve because I have a hope which is eternal life. I serve because I believe in Him and am filled with an inexpressible joy, for I am receiving the goal of my faith, the salvation of my soul. I serve so that God will be glorified and people will come to know of His love.

Last Sunday was my third time teaching in Sunday School. It was quite an experiece I can tell you. I was telling those boys about Paul's second missionary journey, about how God didn't allow Paul and Silas to go to Asia and Bithynia because God had other plans for them. The moment I mentioned the name Barnabas(who didn't follow Paul in this second journey), the whole atmosphere started to change. Those fellas started to make fun of that name. Other names such as 'Bar-banana' and 'Barnabas-Banana' started to come out from their mouths. They would go on and on and on. It was so distracting! Well, I hope that despite of the slight(or major!) distraction, those kids were able to understand the whole message. Boys will still be boys. I really hope they will change once they go on to secodary school. But anyway it was quite fun teaching them. Hope they will outgrow their childish ways.I wonder when it will happen.

I will praise you, O LORD, with all my heart.
I will tell of all your wonders
I will be glad and rejoice in you,
I will sing praise to your name,O Most High.
Psalm 9:1-2

Today's ramblings

Today I attended PERKEB, the cf of UKM.Four reasons why I went: Firsty I wanted see some of my church members who are in UKM, actually many of the are there.I'm the only one who chose UM.Secondly,I wanted to see how their cf is like. Their meetings are conducted in Malay and it was so refreshing to see the East Malaysians together with the West Malaysians worshipping God.We even sang a Dusun song! I really pray and hope that more Sabahans and Sarawakians in UM will gather together and serve in the cf.Thirdly, I wanted to go home( my dad takes me home faithfully every friday) and this brings me to the fourth reason, my dad had to speak in their cf, so I had to follow him to UKM....so complicated!~..But I thank God for giving me this wonderful experience which I don't get so often!

'Not to us, O Lord, not to us
but to your name be the glory,
because of your love and faithfulness.

I read Psalm 115:1 and I'm truly reminded that whatever that I do, I do it all to glorify God and not myself. So whenever we're serving in our church or in our cf, let us be reminded that we are serving God and may the things that we do in our daily life glorify God.Finally let us not forget that our God is a loving and faithful God.

...God is love. This is how God showed His love among us. He sent His one and only Son into the world that we might live through Him. This is love: not the we loved God, but that he loved us and sent His son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins..... 1 John 4:8-10

Remember

I really like this song by Harry Nilsson...it's quite a sad song though..

Long ago, far away
Life was clear, close your eyes
Remember is a place from long ago
Remember filled with everything you know
Remember when you're sad and feelin' down
Remember turn around
Remember life is just a memory
Remember close your eyes and you can see
Remember think of all that life can be
Remember..
Dream love is only in a dream
Remember..
Remember life is never as it seems
Dream-Long ago, far away
Life was clear, close your eyes

Wow!~

Since the last post, so many things happened in my life..but I think I've experienced so much of God's mercy and grace.Life has not been comfortable at times but are we expected to be comfortable all the time? I think we can only grow once we have gone through trials and difficulties because then we can only know the true meaning of hardship. I've learnt to fully trust in God and not just to 'half trust' where there are doubts but to FULLY trust in Him. There are times when I just feel like giving up on a certain problem but after knowing that the problem is not a problem but rather a challenge, it's easier for me solve it...this reminds me of a friend from RBS who once said to me "it's a blessing, not a burden"(if you're reading this, you know who you are!) I feel that it's important for us to submit outselves to God and to allow Him to work in us.

...hmmm....This semester is going to end pretty soon and I've got so much more to read especially for biology and geology. Something that I did not expect earlier: I really like geology so much! My mum told me that a geologist in a family is already enough so we don't need another one :-) Anyway,I'm reminded of God's calling that is teaching. Teaching was never in my mind during my secondary school days but when I was in Form 6 I started to ponder about my future, what was God's will for me. I prayed. From then on I realised that teaching was for me and when I was a temporary teacher, I really enjoyed teaching. It made me realise how much I can give to these students and the impact that I can have on them but most important is that I can tell them about God's love.

On another topic, I think it's really hard for a parent to see their son or daughter(especially daughters) leaving home after getting married. It's hard for me to accept the fact that my sister is going to get married in less than 2 months time. It was much easier for me when my brothers got married but I think it's because I'm much closer to my sister. We won't be seeing her every weekend and during Christmas. Yup, it's hard to let go of something that you cherish a lot but that is how life is. You let go and you move on.