They will call us cikgu.....

Suit Lin, Jia Hui, The-Owner-Of-This-Blog
Felt like putting this picture here. Imagine my life in uni without these two SWEET monkeys. Life would be so dull and...different. What can I say, their 'crazyness' is

super highly infectious!

:-)

Your Dominant Intelligence is Musical Intelligence

Every part of your life has a beat, and you're often tapping your fingers or toes. You enjoy sounds of all types, but you also find sound can distract you at the wrong time. You are probably a gifted musician of some sort - even if you haven't realized it. Also a music lover, you tend to appreciate artists of all kinds. You would make a great musician, disc jockey, singer, or composer.

What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?

A disc jockey? That would be cool! :-) .....hehehe

Death...

Today was yet another day. With everyday passing by so fast, you just wonder what is going to happen next. With life being so uncertain, what is everyone hoping for? What do we expect is going to happen to us in the future? I know I have hope in Christ and I know that my life is secured. Even so, I still wonder what is going to happen next. All of us are aiming for something in this life-success, happiness, goals, dreams...Will all of this matter one day when you know you are between life and death? You know you have achieved something but will it all matter? Are we doing things that have eternal value?

One funeral...and it got me wondering...

Yesterday I attended a funeral of a Datuk who's also my ex student's father and my friend's uncle. Nobody expected him to go suddenly especially at this age of 47-48 years. He was a well known person, who held many high positions and it was no surprise to see many people turning up to his funeral. Everything he has done and all the titles that he has, will it all matter now? Anyway when someone has passed away, even if I know or don't know that person well, I always wonder how will I feel when someone closest to me passes away. I start to think about my parents and I'm afraid. But when I look at them, I can see that they are not afraid of death, because they know that there is life after death. They even talk about it now and then. Just now when I took my Panda out for her daily beauty walk(..hehehe), I saw two of the Datuk's children cycling. They seemed fine. I was just wondering how close they were to their father but I guess how close or how distant you are with someone, you will still feel some kind of loss.

Adelene's Bible...

Oh well.....on another note, today I dropped my less then a year old Bible (given by my sister on my birthday) again. I don't know how many times have I carelessly dropped it and today it was not the usual kind of 'drop', I dropped it beside a puddle of muddy water while I was walking to church. You see, at the same time I was also holding the umbrella, the car keys and my handbag, and the Bible just slipped. Thank God the whole Bible didn't imerse itself inside the water and miraculously only a tiny wee bit of it got wet.Phew!No major/minor damages to my Bible. Careless me....

Maths...and...Geology

I'm a Maths atheist! :-) Had 3 days of pure torture. Sat for my Maths papers and some of the questions ere like greek to me. Throughout the semester I was forced to believe in the Maths solutions, equations and theorems created by no-life people who didn't have other better things to do than. Hah! Idiots! :-p I still have one last Geology paper to go on the 22nd. Hopefully I can still remember how all the rocks, minerals and fossils look like. Gosh!

That person...
I'm so tired of guessing and wondering the 'unknown' that has happened that has caused you to be like this! It's almost end of the year. How long more?How long?

Exams starting on Wednesday
Feeling as if I've lost someone
2 in 1
How am I?

WOW!

BEAUTIFUL!

This evening when I looked out from room window, I saw how beautiful the sky was.It had orange, purple, grey and blue hues that made it very nice to look at. I said to myself hey, it's such a beautiful evening, I shouldn't waste it by sitting in my room studying stupid maths.hehe.After all, because of the haze it's been quite a long time for the sky to be clear. So I decided to take my doggy out for a walk and enjoy the evening. And then, suddenly....as I was looking up into the sky....I saw a swarm of migratory birds about 100 of them at quite a close range. They were all heading south. These are not the usual small birds but BIG, BIG birds and they formed a VERY BIG V. The sight had a majestic feel to it because of how the birds were flying...slow and majestic. It's was truly a beautiful sight that I've never seen before in my life....If I were to compare to all the beautiful scenaries that I've awed and admired at...this cannot be compared to what I've seen today. Truly amazing....

I thank and praise God for His beautiful creation. So beautiful......

Oh sing to the Lord a new song! For He has done marvelous things!

....to be continued will never be continued

Wow.....my 'to be continued' has taken forever. Thousand apologies to those who have waited patiently for me to sambung my 'to be continued' post. Well, I guess I wont continue it anyway. It's been too long already. One month? Sometimes I just don't feel like blogging because there are a lot of things going through my mind. I'm so tempted to put everything in my blog but everything is so personal. I'd rather just tell everything to God or to my closest friends. You know lar, once I've spilled the beans, my abang will ask me thousand and one questions.hahaha

Yesterday I attended my church member's wedding. (More here) It's been a while since I've attended one. It was very lovely. I especially like the decorations because I'm sure you won't see it in any other weddings. Our choir sang two songs and we sang 'God causes all things to grow' by Steven Curtis Chapman. Such a meaningful song. And then after that the bridegroom sang 'I will be here' also by StevenCC. My favourite song!.....Well, it was a joyous occasion. At least this week hadn't been so boring. I'm so sick and tired of studying maths.I miss BIOLOGY!...Finals is in 2 weeks time. BLEHHHHH!

Still thinking about something though. It's so strange when you don't expect some things to happen, happen. It's especially strange when some people approach me and tell me some things that I would never would have expected them to say. It's not bad. No. The feeling is nice but irritating. Well, in two days two people told me a similar thing. How strange and ironic. This whole situation adds on to the months old confusion and conflict that I'm facing.

Sorry to keep you wondering :-)

Got to go study maths. How does one learn how to enjoy maths? I've no idea. :-( stupid maths...

The weekend that was...

It's been a while since I've blogged. There were many attempts to blog but these attempts were often hindered by unforseen curcumstances. My computer(or to be exact, my brother's old computer :p ) has mood swings, she's getting old you know. She can decide to freeze at any moment she likes. So there I was typing out my post and my dear computer decides to take a break by freezing.BLEH! I turn off the computer and re-start it and then I've to type all over again. Forget it....

It was one eventful weekend I must say. On Friday night my YF committee spent a whole night sharing and speaking out our thoughts. We were all in a wooden house(part of the church) adjacent to the church and the wind was so strong and it started to rain heavily. The setting was nice but it was so cold! (You can only get this atmosphere in Banting..hehe)So there we were, sitting in a circle, ready to listen to each other's sharing. Some were very direct. Some spoke the truth.Some spoke with tears. Others shared their burden and concern. For me, I felt that it was the time for me to tell the truth. The truth of what I was facing all these years. I've never actually told many people about this, maybe one or two. It was hard though....Hard to get my words out of my mouth. But I still said it... It's hard to serve in a Chinese speaking church where the English speaking members are the minority. Many a times I have wondered why I'm still in that place and why I still choose the serve there although the challenges are to many for me to bear. But as I ponder further, I realise that God is still able to use me in that place although adapting and fitting into the situation around me can be quite tough. How can I say no when God calls me? I've been praying for a long time about this and as the years go by I feel God's assurance to me....

To be continued...

Got a class to attend....

Still wondering.....

The situation was so awkward.
I sensed someone was standing behind me.
I turned.
I became tongue-tight. I didn't know what to say.
Yet there is so much to say.
I turned back and continued with my work.
Wonder when everything will be normal again.
I'm trying my best but I hope you will do the same thing also.

*Sorry for the cryptic post....

Aimless...

Had the most terrible sleep last night.
Still recovering from my terrible flu..
Feeling that life is so hard but still still have to keep going...
Wondering why there is no reply...
Wondering what is going to happen next...
Wondering why it's so hard right now...
Feeling drained and frustrated now but God assures me everything will be alright..keep walking...

What-did-I-do-on-2-5-September-2006?

Came back from PKV's THE Camp, 2B2C, Building Bridges, Crossing Cultures three days ago. It was my first camp that I was really looking forward to go to because I knew most of the people who were going and this people included my close friends. Camp was great! It was a time for me to think through certain issues-myself, PKV, friendships, my relationship with God...the serenity and stillness of Camerons was something that I really missed a lot.

Building Bridges, Crossing Cultures...

This reminds me that I need to put away whatever self-centeredness that may have been hindering me from reaching out to my friends. Sometimes I give myself so many excuses-ex: I don't know how, I don't have the time, it might affect my friendship with them...etc. It's easy for me to mix with other races...it has never been a problem...but since coming to UM, I find it hard to maintain a close friendship with people outside PKV. Most of it is just on-the-surface kind of friendship, nothing more. God has given me the chance to stay in college for another year, to join the choir, to be room mates with 2 bumiputeras...will I use this opportunity to reach out to my friends? Will I be a brother keeper to my friends in need and not only to people that I feel I have much in common with?

Friendships....

I'm so blessed to know many people in PKV especially the pretty sisters :-) I really treasure this friendship that we have and truly, each one of you have touched my life in your own special way. May each one of us continue to spur and encourage one another in the Lord despite of the many ups and downs that we face each day.

Pictures courtesy of Mun Yee

All the pretty sisters[suit lin and adele are not in the pic! :-( ....] excluding Tuxoon and Johnson....and Sam? :-)

ooh...I'm so cold. help! help!...hehe

Kim Cheng..a woman of great courage. Thanks for everything!

Mun Yee...do you know that my first impression of you in my 1st year was that you are a very garang person..haha..well although I thought you had the garang-ness kind of look but now you are such a warm person to be with. I thank God that I have known a person like you..

Wong Jia Hui...Despite of the many ups and downs, God still never fails to make your life so colourful and meaningful...look to Him always, your help comes from the Lord, the Maker of heaven and earth...thanks for all the help and encouragement, and also for lending your ears to listen to my laments and complains..hehe

My head is blank...can't stop 'achooing' and coughing....grrr....I'm too blur to write anymore...got lots to write about..what Ive learnt, What I did....For more on THE camp, do visit here and here. I'll probably continue another day when the grey clouds have moved away and when the sun is up...

I was reading women quotations on the net and I came across some funny and weird ones.Couldn't stop laughing. No offense to the those with the XY chromosome :-p

George Carlin-Here's all you have to know about men and women: women are crazy, men are stupid. And the main reason women are crazy is that men are stupid.
Katharine Hepburn-Sometimes I wonder if men and women really suit each other. Perhaps they should live next door and just visit now and then.
Margaret Thatcher-If you want anything said, ask a man. If you want something done, ask a woman.
Robert A. Heinlien-Women and cats will do as they please, and men and dogs should relax and get used to the idea.
Virginia Woolf-Why are women ... so much more interesting to men than men are to women?

hehe...

:-)

I have the PEACE of GOD that passes all UNDERSTANDING !

I was going against the current

A message with one word means a lot to me.

About 26 hours ago, I was overwhelmed with what was happening until I couldn't take it. I exploded. Thank God He was there to help me pick up the pieces. I coudn't understand so many things. My limited mind found it hard to understand God's infinite-ness.

Recently, I found myself facing so many obstacles in my life. Not because it came suddenly but because I was 'building' them slowly each day until it became a major problem. I was thinking. I'm like a fish, swimming agaist the current, struggling to push myself against the water.Remember in 'Finding Nemo' where all the turtles were moving along the underwater current to get to a different place?. Rather then going against the current, all the turtles relaxed and allowed the current to take them anywhere. I struggle until I become so tired and burned out. God wants me to thrust my whole life unto Him and to let His will unfold in my life. God's will in like the current. Most of the time I choose to go against it because I want to get to a different destination rather than the place where God wants me to go or to do the things He wants me to do.

I pray that God will show me His wisdom in making the right desicions. I pray that I can find courage in confronting my problems(and The Problem).

And we know that all things work together for the GOOD of those who LOVE God, to those who are THE CALLED according to His purpose.

Romans 8:28

Don't bother

Just to kill time before I go and kutip sampah around campus, I thought of typing somthing meaningless.So don't bother reading this. I felt really down yesterday. I hate Sunday nights. More than half of Monday have already passed by. Just the thought of not being able to settle The Problem(to you know who, you know what it is) makes me so frustrated.

Blah.

Oh well...

Now I have to go and be a garbage collector for a day(PKV is organising a gotong-royong after this. Hope many will turn up though)

Batu-Bata

Stress(macamlah I betul-betul stress) has caused me to post this.....bear with me...I'm going nuts :-)

Finally, FINALLY those stupid rocks make sense to me! Once, I saw rocks as...well...of course rocks.What else can you describe a rock other than calling it a...rock if it's big, or a stone if it's small? Now with my newly acquired knowledge(saying it in a proud tone) on rocks, well to be more specific,on minerals, I've finally understood their existence....Finally!Do you know how hard it took me to appreciate rocks? For your information(only for those who care) rocks are composed of different minerals and each mineral is different from each other in so many ways. Each one has a different chemical composition, specific gravity colour, luster, fracture, crystal habit.....whatever....as if you bother. Now I can also say that God is also creative when it comes to making rocks. Really! Betul! A mineral that doesn't look like an ordinary stone to me is chalcedony(agate) because they come in different colours.When I first saw it I was like 'wah, this thing actually exists on this earth'

BERYL

ROSE QUARTZ
TOPAZ
CHALCEDONY
AMETHYST

"And you shall put settings of stones in it, four rows of stones: The first row shall be a sardius, a topaz, and an emerald: this shall be the first row. The second row shall be a turqoise, a sapphire and a diamond. The third row, a jacinth, an agate, and an amethyst and the fourth row, a beryl, an onyx and a jasper. They shall be set in gold settings.." Exodus 28:17-20(In making the breastplate)

The foundations of the wall of the city were adorned with all kinds of precious stones: the first foundation was jasper, the second sapphire, the third chalcedony, the fourth emerald, the fifth sardonyx, the sixth sardius, the seventh chrysolite, the eight beryl, the ninth topaz, the tenth chrysoprase, the eleventh jacinth and the twelfth amethyst. Revelations 21:19-20(The New Jerusalem)

It's 5:39 pm on this computer

Be prepared for a not so orgonized post.

Aiyoh. So many things on my mind. First of all, I am so frustrated with UM's registration system especially Science and Education faculties. There isn't any communication between the lecturers and the registration system. Some lecturers want their class to be small but then the registration system allows so many students to register for that subject. So when some of us 2nd year students enter our first class of that subject(actually meant for 2nd year students), the lecturer sees that the class is too big and therefore she easily says 'only 3rd and 4th year students can join this class. All first and second year students please leave'. It's so was so easy for her to say that without realising that once we drop that subject or any subject for that matter it's going to be so hard to replace the credit hours. So I lost 2 credit hours. Just like that.

And then, I don't know why of all subjects(abt 100 of the luar fakulti subjects) they had to close down 'Iklim dan manusia', the subject that I registered for. There goes another 2 credit hours. Stupid. I had to find a replacement for the 4 credit hrs I lost.

Ever since I was in secondary school, I hated public speaking. It's ok for me to speak in small groups or during a class presentation but to speak infront of people with a certain topic and only 5 mins to prepare is something that I really really dislike. Since I had so little c/h, most of the subjects are full and most of the 'interesting' luar fakulti subjects have been filled up, or it clashes with my other subjects....I was left with no other choice.......but to register for 'SPOKEN ENGLISH FOR PROFESSIONALS'........aiyohhhh.........

And then when I went to that lecture, of all people I had to be the first one to go in front and introduce myself. We had to make it interesting blah, blah, blah...and we had to share our personal experiences. And there are only 10 people in that class. My goodness. But......good points for this class are:

1. Lecturer is so warm and friendly

2. She only gives positive comments to everyone(although some of the students bore all of us with their boring stories...I think I do also..hehe)

3. She also writes down comments on a piece of paper for everyone.

4. Everyone knows everyone in the class. 10 people only compared to our bio lectures with over 200 students in one class.

5.Hopefully I can speak better after this....hehehe

Well, still short of two credit hrs, but I think it's ok...At least I got more time for my three maths stubjects.

What's on my mind now ...

After posting this, I'm going for our Malam Suai Kenal comm meeting which Im in charge of. So many things to think about. Still short of RM300 and the event is next wednesday.Praying very hard about it.

I would really like if people would reply my smses especially when I have asked them about something very important example, if they can come for a meeting, or a practice,etc......bleh......I know, I'm such an impatient person, but not getting an answer makes me so frustrated....

:-p :-) :-/ :-(

Got so much to write yet so little time.

1. Got a room on the highest floor.Aiyoh. Then found out that my room mates are two Christian bumis, one from Sarawak, one from Sabah. Yay!.
2. During geology class(pengenalan kdp mineral, batuan dan fossil), we were told to go look at the minerals and describe their characteristics.(according to structure, colour, fractures, etc). My answers: Mineral epidot-looks like a rock(duh, they all look like ordinary rocks to me), hornblende-has some funny lines on it, biotite-looks shiny, muscovite-looks like a plastic paper(oh, this one certainly doesn't look like a rock to me :p)...all stupid answers..what else to write?..hehe
3. I'm taking three maths subjects. How crazy is that. Calculus, Probability and Maths Asas.
4. Feels so great being a senior. Got a different feeling compared to the time when I was a junior.
5. Still thinking about me and Unsettled Problem which I think we are going to remain like that for the rest of my life. Bleh.
6. How is this semester going to be?busy?hectic?stressful? I commit all to God. I know that He has brought me this far to the place where I am now. There's no turning back. I will press on and I will go in the strength of the Lord...
7. Me got to go balik now to kolej kediaman keempat.

Ladida~

Aiyoh

A few more days and I will be a second year student. So much has happened in my first year. A lot of surprises, new friends, successes(hmmm....), disappointments, frustration and tears. So fast the holidays past by. Just like that. I thought I could settle some issues between me and The Problem, but it's left unsettled.
A new start in this new semester.

I was cracking my head on what the theme for PKV's Malam Suai Kenal should be. After the EXCO comm and Kim Cheng came up with the idea of BANG, then it got me thinking on how the theme is going to be connected to that word. We are going to begin this semester with a BANG! B-new Beginning, A-new Aspirations, N-new Needs, G-new Goals. I don't know what they are going to say about this theme at tomorrow's committee meeting. :-P MSK is my first project that I'm taking charge of. There were times when I was quite stressed because I didn't know what to do. Actually it was a last minute desicion because the person that was assigned by the comm couldn't take up this post. Oh well...I'm half excited and half nervous. So far I think everything is going on well. It's so hard to plan especially during the holidays because we don't meet people and it's hard to know whether they agree or not.

Nutty Friday
Last Friday, three nuts visited a got-life town named Banting. Although life was so evident at this place, one of the nuts said that this town got no life. Now, I wonder why this nut said that. Was it because of what he saw or did not see? Was it because he saw a Ten-Ten supermarket and not a Jusco?Was it because he saw two rows of old shop-houses and not two rows of tall buildings?

I wonder why...hmmmm

So these three nuts, a nut from Banting, and Not-A-Nut spent the whole Friday afternoon together. They went to a hill named Jugra hoping to catch the sunset. But before the sun even setted, some of the nuts decided that they begin their journey down the hill and head home for dinner because it was too hot for them to bear(especially that nut who wore jeans!)

After dinner it was time to say goodbye. The 4 nuts said their goodbyes to Not-A-Nut after dropping her at her house. The nuts were heading for Putrajaya to take photos of the bridges(macamlah tak pernah tengok jambatan). Being together for a few hours, the 4 nuts and Not-A-Nut enjoyed themselves(correct?) at this got-life town named Banting. Will they come back again? We shall see....

hehehe.....

A Week Of Weird-ness

My maid wrapped the unripe mangoes on our tress with newspaper. Well, this is the first time I'm seeing the mango tree in front of my house with newspaper-wrapped mangoes because we usually don't wrap them. As soon as it is ripe we eat them. So, it's not unusual for people to wrap their unripe fruits. You can see it almost everywhere. You can see it at your neighbours house or at an orchad. People do that to so that unwanted creatures such as the birds or the squirrels will not eat them. It's normal. But the reason why my maid wraps them? No no, it's not because of the birds and the squirrels.She does it so that the unwanted creature, the gardener's wife does not steal them. Seriously.

A friend gave my dad two grape plants. He got so excited. Most probably he pictures a vineyard (Malaysian style) behind our house. Just kidding, just kidding. It's weird(in a good way) to see him so engrossed with two small grape plants. He even bought wood to make some sort of frame so that this creeper like plant can...well..creep on it. I don't know a better way to describe it. Oh, and he asks me to sing to it everyday to ensure optimum growth. Not seriously.

Since it's been raining everyday, my mum has covered the soil with plastic bag so that it doesn't get too much water to avoid it from being drown...hehehe

Panda, my dog is not a dog. She's afraid of chickens, cats, rats and goats and she doesn't bothers to chase one. This reminds me of an incident where a goat(you see, my Taman is such a happening place. Sometimes, you'd be able to see goats lepaking around, because some of the Indians at the nearby ladang kelapa sawit rear goats [oh and this reminds me of another particular incident that happened long, long time ago. A time when my Taman was a happening place for the cows. Seriously. So. My brother and his girl friends were walking from/to..not sure..the kindergarten. And there was this cow roaming around and he got scared. Read carefully. HE got scared.Not SHE/THEY got scared. He thought the cow was chasing him..hehehe..oh Im so going to die for saying this]) Coming back, coming back...This reminds me of an incident where a goat came into the house compound. There, my dog was standing in front of the goat trying to prove her macho-ness but I know she's terrified to the max. Suddenly, the goat nudges my dog with its two horns. Ouch! I certainly didnt see that coming what more did my dog. Poor thing.

No no..that is not related to my week of weird-ness. Yesterday, Panda shared its dinner with a mouse. Seriously. Yuks. I've not seen a mouse/rat running around for many,many years. There I was standing, looking at my dog finish up her dinner outside of my house. It was at night. Then suddenly I saw this thing moving in the shadows. I looked closer. It was a small mouce and it was eating the grains of rice on the floor. What on earth was it doing there? It was not even scared of Panda or me standing there and this dog was not even aware of it....I find it weird.

What a weird week I tell you...

OOoops!....abang already knows UPS & downs. :-)
Who else knows ah?

Last weekend was a busy one for me. Busy at YF. Busy at church. Busy at Sunday School. It's all worth it. Not for my own glory but for God's glory.It's so great to serve an awesome and holy God. I've really enjoyed myself the past three days at my church Sunday School's Vacational Fun Class. 231 children! Brats will be brats,but they are still so adorable and cute. When I look at those children, I imagine what they will be like when they grow up and how they'll look like.(oh, one of my hobbies is looking at people and figuring out what they might be thinking..hehehe) I imagine one fat boy to be a big sized man when he grows up, probably he'll be a businessman one day because I can already see dolar signs in his eyes. :p And then there's this cute and pretty girl, I think she's going to be a popular girl at secondary school with a lot of boys tagging behind her :-) I find them interesting to look at. Miniature human beings. Always feeling confused, always want attention, always want their way. Are we not like them also?

I admire my mum's faith (she's the ssch superintendent). People(and I'm one of them) did not believe that we could handle 231 children in our VFC. There are just too many kids to handle. What about space and man power? Who's going to control those kids?. Something which she said that struck me, 'when God sends these little children, we do not turn them away'.In the end, there were enough teachers and helpers. The church hall was just enough to fit everyone during worship and the main theme talks. Some who were not involved also came to show their support. My mum totally surrenders everything to God, and prayer has been an important part all this while. Everything went on so well during these 3 days that there weren't any problems at all. The weather was good it wasn't raining. Thank God! The teachers were able to control their own students. Those kids enjoyed themselves and their singing during worship really moved us. Now as they are back home with their family, playing, running, watching TV, or being a brat/clown in front of everyone, I pray that each one of them remember what they have learnt and keep in them the message and hope that they have heard and received.