Easter celebration@UM-14th March 2007

In the beginning, there were 2 people in front of the miniature houses.And then there were 7 of us....
5 people decided to join us...
Finally...all those buffalos decided to join us!
And we even had a small RBS reunion. Samuel Leong The Lelaki Panjang, Simon, Roger,Puay En, Miss Adele Yeap The PKV treasurer and ajw

People pictures during Easter Celebration

Oh no! We are tearing down the house! :-( The whole gang
We are soldiers/disciples/dancers

Vain gals ;-)

Upper left-With Kat, Upper right-With Mun Siong

Easter Celebration at University of Malaya:14th of March 2007

Last Wednesday was truly amazing. Now, I just pray that the Easter message will continue to speak and inspire those who attended the Easter musical and even to me. I remember not only Christ's death on the cross, but how He has risen and conquered death for a sinner like you and me...and now I have HOPE

"And if Christ is not risen, then our preaching is empty and your faith is also empty....If in this life only we have hope in Christ, we are of all men most pitiable. But now Christ is risen from the dead..."

"But God demonstrates His own love toward us, in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us...And not only that, but we also rejoice in God through our Lord Jesus Christ through whom we have now received the reconciliation"

*Pictures courtesy of ah-loke

-Worship team and tambourine dance--Finale:Resurrection-Cloth dance- -Closing-

-Closing-

Still no pictures on the drama...hope to get them soon!

It is so painful!

Ouch! Is all I can say for the past 2 and a half days. On Wednesday night, just as our Easter night was about to start, I had a terrible sore throat and headache. Yesterday, whole day I was feeling so sick...so Bleh...and today, because of my terrible posture while I was sleeping last night, I woke up with a terrible pain on my right hand. You see, I was too tired that I slept on my right hand most of the night. Probably I was feeling cold and didn't bother to use the blanket to cover myself. Even as I type this, I feel the pain. More pain if I write or even hold a spoon. Playing the piano just now during CG was...err...so painful :-( So, to all of you. Please appreciate the hands God has given you even when you are writing or eating. Never take them for-granted.

Just now I was reading a friend's blog and it reminded me of my previous posts. Some of you (if there is any), and especially my sister noticed that previously my writings were quite cryptic. Well, for obvious reasons I didn't want to make it sound so obvious. If not, you know lar...Mike will then ask me 1 million questions :-) Well, I think I have gotten over it. The situation hasn't gotten better or worst but I thank God that the hard part has gone away-me getting over it,once and for all. Maybe. See, my words are crpytic again. I just can't help it :-)

Ouch! Right hand still hurts...

Within 15 minutes...

I managed to capture this small insects with my camera. I wouldn't have noticed them if I didn't look properly. Come to think of it, this is how we are most of the time. We are so busy with ourselves that we are so often ignorant of what is happening around us.

4 Collages

Flowers in the garden. Leaves

Indians having a Chinese New Year reunion dinner. Can you spot the Chinese? :-) Debbie and I had a posing session.

Random

*Yawn* I'm so bored sitting down here at the computer lab. It's one of the very few days when I can get bored sitting down here, waiting for my next class.

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So many 'happenings' these past few weeks and I'm just plain lazy to tell them here. Many good things happened. Got many blessings from God which I truly am so grateful and thankful for. I've learnt that prayer is not only essential in my life, but it is the only thing that keeps me going. Faced many different situations with people I know and have learnt how to deal with them. So much of learning and reassurance from God. Well, I can say that there was a mixture of so many things that I don't know how to explain them.

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I miss my family. Chinese New Year was a great time because apart from Christmas it is the time when the whole family gets together again. No one knows this, but I don't quite like the feeling once everyone leaves home. It's like a sudden change. From a house filled with people and suddenly it's just me and my parents, and my Panda, and Sumiati. Oh well...

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Yesterday night was so bizarre. I had 2 nightmares.*Shocking!*After the 2nd nightmare (about a death in the family,*gasp!), I suddenly woke up and a few seconds later Mike messaged me saying that WP had just given birth to a baby boy! What a sudden change! Well, I'm so glad for both Mike and WP. Now in total, I have 3 nephews and 2 nieces. :-) Can't wait to see all of them again.

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Easter Night @UM...everyone is so busy with practises and preparations. I've been running here and there meeting people and getting approvals done. One year ago, I didn't/couldn't imagine myself actually meeting people. All this while I have been afraid to speak up or even meet people whom I don't really know but I now I'm so thankful for this opportunity. The feeling of getting things approved is so satisfying..hehe..But truly, it's by God's grace and I've leart and am still learning to really depend on Him in all areas which seem to be out of my control.

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*Yawn*again. Time's up. Got to attend class.

".....whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable — if anything is excellent or praiseworthy— think about such things...."

Philippians 4:8

Flies=Lalat

Holidays are so nice. I don't need to worry or think about anything although there are certain important things I need to keep in mind for example Cognitive assignment and my CF's Committee Planning Retreat(which is not a real retreat) next week. Well, there is so much write in this blog of mine.

Last week, we finished most of our Biology labs and I can tell you how delightful I am. No more doing bacterial streaking and culturing them. We had to culture E.coli bacteria. Gasp! No more mating Drosophila flies (fruit flies). Imagine for 5 weeks we had to mate mutant flies to produce more mutant progenies. And then we had to allow incest(my Genetics lecturer likes to use this word) among the progenies to create even more mutants. This is what I had to endure.It was fun but counting those tiny creatures can be so daunting. Poor flies. Especially the mutant ones. Some of them have scarlet eyes. Some have very tiny and cacat-ed wings(vestigial). Some would be wondering why their bodies are so black from normal.

This is how we breed the flies

A mutant fly with scarlet(bright red) eyes

A normal fly

2 flies with small wings.Imagine how hard it is for them to fly.

Poor things. And I'm so symphatetic with these fellas :-)

Poor flies again. They were etherized until they all died.Wicked. May their spirits rest in peace

Once all the flies were counted and examined we had to discard them (yes, there is a proper way to throw them away) into a bottle filled with spirit. Now we wouldn't want to throw the flies away into a waste paper basket because if we did that, the fainted flies (those that didn't really die) would wake up and territorize the lab. That would certainly be disastrous. *In a serious tone*....hehe...

Now, we must be careful not to provoke the flies. Terrible things might happen to us. It happened to my lab-mate, Miss Wong. She accidentally knocked the not-closed spirit+flies bottle and the spirit+flies spilled onto her lab coat. *Shocked!* As I said, may the spirits of the disturbed flies rest in peace. :-)

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To Miss Wong, it was fun having you as a lab-mate!

Night

People take their dogs out in the evenings, I like to take my dog out at night. People take photos during the day, I take photos at night.

During our free time, we residents of this housing area like to go around and erase letters on the road signs. From Jalan Cempaka to Jalan Cempak.Fantastic.

Panda and my shadow

Look! She is a tail-less dog! Someone threw her in front of my house when she was just a puppy. That cruel fellow also cut her tail off. Sick person I tell you.

1985-1997

The week that was. So different. But was still calm despite of everything.

I was reminiscing on my childhood and my younger days. There were so many things that happened and changed over the years. Good things. Bad things. There were some people who were in my life at one point but after a while everything changed...gradually.

1. When I was young (about 7 to 8 years), I liked to play with those small black beetles. These creatures visit my house quite often. So how did I play with them? First, I'd arrange them in a row and have a small race on my own, see who's the fastest to reach the final point. Secondly, I liked to throw the small beetle into the air. You know when you throw them then they will fly and not fall down. It's like as if I had some sort of magic powers, I could make the beetle fly when I threw it up into the air.hehe..But of course this doesn't include the sick beetles. You'd throw them and they still ended up falling down to the ground.ouch..
2. I used to go to my Indian neighbour's house to play masak-masak. The irony is, she was my enemy. I didn't like her, and most probably she didn't like me too. She used to bully a Chinese girl in front of her house. But, I guess the word 'enemy' didn't really mean much to me. As long as I could enjoy myself then it's enough.
3. The furthest I can remember doing (when I was about 2-3 years old) was playing ball catching with my brother, Mike(15-16years old). This is the only thing I can remember when I was that age. I can't remember anything else before 3 years old.
4. When I was 11-12 years old I used to go to my another neighbour's house to play badminton(yes,you shutzeyuh, if you still remember..hehe) with another boy by the name of Johan Arif. I can't remember who else played. But I remember that Johan's smashes were super strong.
5. I used to play a lot with a girl who lived(and still is living) a few houses away from mine. We used to be so close at that time. We played masak-masak and other silly games. But things started to change when we went to secondary school. She had her new group of friends(and I had mine).
6. Last time I had a Malay girl friend. Her name is Diana. I used to go to her house just a few blocks away from my house. One day, Diana, another girl Baiduri and I were playing something, some English game thingy. Baiduri was supposed to pronounce 'Banana' but she said 'Babana' instead. All of us couldn't stop laughing. I don't know why I remember this till today. And I remember how I, Diana and some other friends used to go to the town library once in a while to borrow books to read or even played chess in the library itself.
7. During standard 5/6, I was quite close to a girl named Farhana. She was quite weak in Maths and I remember helping her quite a number of times. But she was a very friendly and humble person. Wonder where she is now.
8. Me and my primary school friends(standard5/6) had our first knowledge on what 'puppy love' is when a boy by the name of Koh Tian Ford had a crush on our friend named Soon. I remember all the giggles and gossips from all of my girl friends.hehe..
9. When I was in kindergarten(6 years old), we used to play 'The Hungry Bad Wolf' during our recess time. One person will lean onto the wall with his back facing us. We will then ask him' What time is it Mr. Wolf?' and he will answer back, 'it's 6 o' clock'. We keep on asking the same question. If he answers 'it's dinner time', he will start to chase everyone and try to catch someone.
10. I remember in standard 2, me and all of my classmates(Rumah Merah) had to dance using coconut shells. It's more of a syncronized movement rather than a dance. I remember the teacher used Kitaro's instumental piece as the background music.So funny.The whole class performed during sports day and I think we really enjoyed it lot. It was my first time perfoming in front of a big audience.

Coming back to the year 2007. I think I have forgotten what is it like to have a Malay girl or a guy as a close friend or having Malay friends for that matter. My primary and secondary school (not including Form 6) have taught me how to mix with Malays, Indians and Chinese. But since going to Form 6 I have lost touch with the Malays, and at university, I have lost touch with both the Malays and the Indians. I really miss mixing with them and doing things together and this is truly a sad thing....

I don't like

Something is dead at home. I don't know what happen. But it was foreseen long ago that it is going to die anytime soon. But why now? WHY?? It so happens that this semester many of my dear lecturers are tech savvy and chunks of my lecture notes are saved in my thumbdrive and also in that once living thing. Frustrating. Irritating. Now, a secretary's job is also much HARDER! I don't know how already. I don't like to keep on asking and asking and receiving and receiving. I know the difficulties. But how now? It's not that I'm demanding......
This is Terrible....

Suddenly this tune keeps playing in my mind and it cannot stop~hehe

Everybody ought to know (3x)
Who Jesus is

Oi!! I want to tell you something!

"God said....I'll show up and take care of you as I promised and bring you back home. I know what I'm doing. I have planned out-plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hoped for.."

Jeremiah 29:11

gila-gila today.....

Feeling so happy today. Molecular Genetics practical is cancelled this afternoon. That means I'm FREE! Plus, today is Thursday and that means I only have ONE more NIGHT to shower at my college and sleep on my not-so-comfortable bed before I head home tomorrow for the weekend! Terrible me. I wonder whether I will be able to cope when I'm posted to a school far,far away from home-for example Sabah.*Gasp*. Oh well, I think I will be OK by then. Now, I'm just pampering myself and making use of this opportunity to enjoy the comforts of home. There is a time for everything. In two years time, I guess I would be ready to face whatever changes that would come into my life. Hopefully. But in the mean time, I'm just looking forward to go home this weekend and meet my darling............Panda The Dog! Yup, Panda is a dog. You can only find this in MY House.

A time of reflection....A time of questioning....

Ephesians 4 : 12-16

In this new year of 2007, how will my life be. Will it be the same as last year? Am I still a babe craving for milk instead of solid food? It's so easy to remain the same person every year and not growing. It's so easy to remain complacent and not be aware of what is happening to my relationship with God. It's so easy to pretend and live a Christian life without examining the depths of the heart-what is actually happening beneath the person that I am in front of people. Is this what God wants me to be? To remain like this forever? How can I go into greater heights with God if I myself am not willing to allow Him to work in me and through me? How can I know God if I don't have the desire to edify and equip myself with His word?

This morning I was pondering on the word 'fullness' or 'full'. Realised that the word 'fullness' appears quite a number of times in the Bible.

John 1:16- And of His fullness we have all received, and grace for grace.

John 15:11- “These things I have spoken to you, that My joy may remain in you, and that

your joy may be full..."

Ephesians 3:19- to know the love of Christ which passes knowledge; that you may be filled

with all the fullness of God...

And then in Ephesians 4:13-....to have the stature of fullness of Christ

Fullness in my life. To have the stature of fullness of Christ. Is my life like this? Or is it just half-full?

After reading Ephesians 4:17, I pondered on the church, my church. It cannot grow if there is no equipping and edifying of the word; and there isn't unity of the faith and knowledge of Christ. I wonder whether all of us really realise this. Are we going to church just for the sake of going? Or being like robots-serving in church without actually realising that we are serving God? Or are we serving but at the same time our relationship with God and people is not made right? Or we are serving but our service is not effective because we are not fully eqipped? Is God happy with me? Is God happy with the church, my church?

My Favourite Pictures

Hidden Beauty


















White
Butterfly














Two very busy bees




















Philip the praying-mantis




























The Ladybird. I Like the contrast
between the colour of the ladybird and the leaf.

terrible.terribl.terrib.terri.terr.ter.te.t.And it's not terrible anymore

2 posts in 1 day...

As usual, I get quite frustrated when it comes to registering my subjects online. Again I am disappointed with Universiti Malaya's registration system especially the Science (Biology) and Education faculties. Again I couldn't get the subjects I wanted because they are already full and I'm still short of 5 credit hours. I still don't understand how come the places can be filled up so fast even though I register right on the dot, 9:00am. Now I have to go and register manually, and hope that the lecturers are kind enough to let me and others in. Well, on the plus side, no MATHEMATHICS this semester! I'm looking foward to studying Biology. I'll be taking General Microbiology, Basic Genetics, Pencemaran Alam Sekitar. This one I don't quite like...pollution of our surroundings..how interestering :-( Hope I can register molecular genetics manually.

Well, another new year, a new semester, with so much of unexpectations. There is nothing I can do but to look forward to a new start and put my entire trust in God.

guide me by your truth
and instruct me.
You keep me safe,
and I always trust You...Psalm 25:5

Few more days and I will end my choir camp. It's not actually a camp for me because I come back on the weekends. And then there is Christmas and everyone will be coming back home. Hope to really enjoy the remaining two weeks of my holidays before the semester starts. Will be quite busy with Christmas-dancing(not easy), playing along with other 2 pianists for my church choir. Well, all will be well. I'm a litttle excited.

*see the post below*

High Hopes

High Hopes

Next time you're found, with your chin on the ground,

There's a lot to be learned,

So look around.

Just what makes that little ol' ant,

Think he'll move that rubber tree plant, (in this case, mango tree plant)

Anyone knows an ant can't move a rubber tree plant.

But he's got High Hopes,

He's got High Hopes,

He's got high apple pie in the sky--hopes,

So any time you're getting low,

'Stead of letting go,

Just remember that ant.

Oops!There goes another rubber tree plant, (..or, mango tree plant)

A problem's just a toy balloon,

They'll be bursting soon,

They're just bound to go 'Pop!'

Oops!There goes another problem, kerplop!

Kerplop!

This is one of the songs which my residential college will be singing for the choir competition. Quite a cute song, yet so meaningful to people who always seem to have loads of problem on their back. I like that picture which I took on the mango tree in front of my house. I didn't know the tree is infested with that longish-thingy creature. It's actually a long shell, and there is a worm carrying it. Imagine seeing this thing move on the tree. It looks wierd. It looks like a snail but I really have no idea what it is.

Monday ramblings...

I'm in my second week of holidays and I'm feeling tired. So many things are going on. Started attending my residential college's choir camp last week. Skipped today because I have dance practice later for my church's Christmas Evangelistic Night. Haven't danced for ages and I feel so rusty. Last week, I must say, I had a fruitful week when I was back in college although I was alone in my room most of the time when we were not practicing the songs. Imagine-no TV, computer to keep me occupied. But I had a good time being alone. I had all the time to read the biography of James Hudson Taylor that I borrowed from Kim Cheng, do some journalling (stopped about a year later after Residential Bible School...teribble me) and take pictures of my good friends at college-the monkeys that frequently visit my room window in the evenings (Mike gave me a second hand digital camera, what a good timing!) The Monkeys aka My Personal Entertainers. I think they are so adorable!

It's so fulfilling to be alone with God, and reflecting about life and on His Word. I feel that the busyness of the past semester and whatever problems/stress that I faced had made me out of tune with so many things especially to know that God is in control of the circumstances that happen around me. Reading about the life of Hudson Taylor has also taught me many valuable lessons particularly in submitting my whole self to God and to allow Him to use me in different ways. Well, I haven't finish reading this book. Will probably write more about it later.

So many things on my mind and I need to get them done during the holidays:

-Visit the Hal Ehwal Pelajar office to get the Easter approval done. I hope I will have time to go during one of the afternoons when there isn't any choir practice. Pray that the university will approve and that the venue will be available. I want to get it done by this week.

-Practise choir songs. There are 4 songs that I need to play for the choir. 4 SONGS!! The competition is on 7th of January.

-Christmas dance.

-Submit the photos for the photography competition which Suit Lin kindly signed in for me a few months ago because of a picture that I took in Camerons. Again, what a good timing for Mike to give me that camera :-)

Well, before I end I'm going to make another cryptic statement that will make everyone especially my dear sister nuts!

After many, many months of not talking, I managed to talk to Myfriend about something concerning...something...purely business. Well, although the conversation was about 1 minute or so, at least this is a tiny, weeny improvement after many months . Sigh...

Truly my soul silently waits for God,

From Him comes my salvation,

He is my rock and my salvation,

He is my defense,

I shall not be greatly moved

Psalm 62:1-2

They will call us cikgu.....

Suit Lin, Jia Hui, The-Owner-Of-This-Blog
Felt like putting this picture here. Imagine my life in uni without these two SWEET monkeys. Life would be so dull and...different. What can I say, their 'crazyness' is

super highly infectious!

:-)

Your Dominant Intelligence is Musical Intelligence

Every part of your life has a beat, and you're often tapping your fingers or toes. You enjoy sounds of all types, but you also find sound can distract you at the wrong time. You are probably a gifted musician of some sort - even if you haven't realized it. Also a music lover, you tend to appreciate artists of all kinds. You would make a great musician, disc jockey, singer, or composer.

What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?

A disc jockey? That would be cool! :-) .....hehehe

Death...

Today was yet another day. With everyday passing by so fast, you just wonder what is going to happen next. With life being so uncertain, what is everyone hoping for? What do we expect is going to happen to us in the future? I know I have hope in Christ and I know that my life is secured. Even so, I still wonder what is going to happen next. All of us are aiming for something in this life-success, happiness, goals, dreams...Will all of this matter one day when you know you are between life and death? You know you have achieved something but will it all matter? Are we doing things that have eternal value?

One funeral...and it got me wondering...

Yesterday I attended a funeral of a Datuk who's also my ex student's father and my friend's uncle. Nobody expected him to go suddenly especially at this age of 47-48 years. He was a well known person, who held many high positions and it was no surprise to see many people turning up to his funeral. Everything he has done and all the titles that he has, will it all matter now? Anyway when someone has passed away, even if I know or don't know that person well, I always wonder how will I feel when someone closest to me passes away. I start to think about my parents and I'm afraid. But when I look at them, I can see that they are not afraid of death, because they know that there is life after death. They even talk about it now and then. Just now when I took my Panda out for her daily beauty walk(..hehehe), I saw two of the Datuk's children cycling. They seemed fine. I was just wondering how close they were to their father but I guess how close or how distant you are with someone, you will still feel some kind of loss.

Adelene's Bible...

Oh well.....on another note, today I dropped my less then a year old Bible (given by my sister on my birthday) again. I don't know how many times have I carelessly dropped it and today it was not the usual kind of 'drop', I dropped it beside a puddle of muddy water while I was walking to church. You see, at the same time I was also holding the umbrella, the car keys and my handbag, and the Bible just slipped. Thank God the whole Bible didn't imerse itself inside the water and miraculously only a tiny wee bit of it got wet.Phew!No major/minor damages to my Bible. Careless me....

Maths...and...Geology

I'm a Maths atheist! :-) Had 3 days of pure torture. Sat for my Maths papers and some of the questions ere like greek to me. Throughout the semester I was forced to believe in the Maths solutions, equations and theorems created by no-life people who didn't have other better things to do than. Hah! Idiots! :-p I still have one last Geology paper to go on the 22nd. Hopefully I can still remember how all the rocks, minerals and fossils look like. Gosh!

That person...
I'm so tired of guessing and wondering the 'unknown' that has happened that has caused you to be like this! It's almost end of the year. How long more?How long?

Exams starting on Wednesday
Feeling as if I've lost someone
2 in 1
How am I?

WOW!

BEAUTIFUL!

This evening when I looked out from room window, I saw how beautiful the sky was.It had orange, purple, grey and blue hues that made it very nice to look at. I said to myself hey, it's such a beautiful evening, I shouldn't waste it by sitting in my room studying stupid maths.hehe.After all, because of the haze it's been quite a long time for the sky to be clear. So I decided to take my doggy out for a walk and enjoy the evening. And then, suddenly....as I was looking up into the sky....I saw a swarm of migratory birds about 100 of them at quite a close range. They were all heading south. These are not the usual small birds but BIG, BIG birds and they formed a VERY BIG V. The sight had a majestic feel to it because of how the birds were flying...slow and majestic. It's was truly a beautiful sight that I've never seen before in my life....If I were to compare to all the beautiful scenaries that I've awed and admired at...this cannot be compared to what I've seen today. Truly amazing....

I thank and praise God for His beautiful creation. So beautiful......

Oh sing to the Lord a new song! For He has done marvelous things!

....to be continued will never be continued

Wow.....my 'to be continued' has taken forever. Thousand apologies to those who have waited patiently for me to sambung my 'to be continued' post. Well, I guess I wont continue it anyway. It's been too long already. One month? Sometimes I just don't feel like blogging because there are a lot of things going through my mind. I'm so tempted to put everything in my blog but everything is so personal. I'd rather just tell everything to God or to my closest friends. You know lar, once I've spilled the beans, my abang will ask me thousand and one questions.hahaha

Yesterday I attended my church member's wedding. (More here) It's been a while since I've attended one. It was very lovely. I especially like the decorations because I'm sure you won't see it in any other weddings. Our choir sang two songs and we sang 'God causes all things to grow' by Steven Curtis Chapman. Such a meaningful song. And then after that the bridegroom sang 'I will be here' also by StevenCC. My favourite song!.....Well, it was a joyous occasion. At least this week hadn't been so boring. I'm so sick and tired of studying maths.I miss BIOLOGY!...Finals is in 2 weeks time. BLEHHHHH!

Still thinking about something though. It's so strange when you don't expect some things to happen, happen. It's especially strange when some people approach me and tell me some things that I would never would have expected them to say. It's not bad. No. The feeling is nice but irritating. Well, in two days two people told me a similar thing. How strange and ironic. This whole situation adds on to the months old confusion and conflict that I'm facing.

Sorry to keep you wondering :-)

Got to go study maths. How does one learn how to enjoy maths? I've no idea. :-( stupid maths...

The weekend that was...

It's been a while since I've blogged. There were many attempts to blog but these attempts were often hindered by unforseen curcumstances. My computer(or to be exact, my brother's old computer :p ) has mood swings, she's getting old you know. She can decide to freeze at any moment she likes. So there I was typing out my post and my dear computer decides to take a break by freezing.BLEH! I turn off the computer and re-start it and then I've to type all over again. Forget it....

It was one eventful weekend I must say. On Friday night my YF committee spent a whole night sharing and speaking out our thoughts. We were all in a wooden house(part of the church) adjacent to the church and the wind was so strong and it started to rain heavily. The setting was nice but it was so cold! (You can only get this atmosphere in Banting..hehe)So there we were, sitting in a circle, ready to listen to each other's sharing. Some were very direct. Some spoke the truth.Some spoke with tears. Others shared their burden and concern. For me, I felt that it was the time for me to tell the truth. The truth of what I was facing all these years. I've never actually told many people about this, maybe one or two. It was hard though....Hard to get my words out of my mouth. But I still said it... It's hard to serve in a Chinese speaking church where the English speaking members are the minority. Many a times I have wondered why I'm still in that place and why I still choose the serve there although the challenges are to many for me to bear. But as I ponder further, I realise that God is still able to use me in that place although adapting and fitting into the situation around me can be quite tough. How can I say no when God calls me? I've been praying for a long time about this and as the years go by I feel God's assurance to me....

To be continued...

Got a class to attend....

Still wondering.....

The situation was so awkward.
I sensed someone was standing behind me.
I turned.
I became tongue-tight. I didn't know what to say.
Yet there is so much to say.
I turned back and continued with my work.
Wonder when everything will be normal again.
I'm trying my best but I hope you will do the same thing also.

*Sorry for the cryptic post....

Aimless...

Had the most terrible sleep last night.
Still recovering from my terrible flu..
Feeling that life is so hard but still still have to keep going...
Wondering why there is no reply...
Wondering what is going to happen next...
Wondering why it's so hard right now...
Feeling drained and frustrated now but God assures me everything will be alright..keep walking...

What-did-I-do-on-2-5-September-2006?

Came back from PKV's THE Camp, 2B2C, Building Bridges, Crossing Cultures three days ago. It was my first camp that I was really looking forward to go to because I knew most of the people who were going and this people included my close friends. Camp was great! It was a time for me to think through certain issues-myself, PKV, friendships, my relationship with God...the serenity and stillness of Camerons was something that I really missed a lot.

Building Bridges, Crossing Cultures...

This reminds me that I need to put away whatever self-centeredness that may have been hindering me from reaching out to my friends. Sometimes I give myself so many excuses-ex: I don't know how, I don't have the time, it might affect my friendship with them...etc. It's easy for me to mix with other races...it has never been a problem...but since coming to UM, I find it hard to maintain a close friendship with people outside PKV. Most of it is just on-the-surface kind of friendship, nothing more. God has given me the chance to stay in college for another year, to join the choir, to be room mates with 2 bumiputeras...will I use this opportunity to reach out to my friends? Will I be a brother keeper to my friends in need and not only to people that I feel I have much in common with?

Friendships....

I'm so blessed to know many people in PKV especially the pretty sisters :-) I really treasure this friendship that we have and truly, each one of you have touched my life in your own special way. May each one of us continue to spur and encourage one another in the Lord despite of the many ups and downs that we face each day.

Pictures courtesy of Mun Yee

All the pretty sisters[suit lin and adele are not in the pic! :-( ....] excluding Tuxoon and Johnson....and Sam? :-)

ooh...I'm so cold. help! help!...hehe

Kim Cheng..a woman of great courage. Thanks for everything!

Mun Yee...do you know that my first impression of you in my 1st year was that you are a very garang person..haha..well although I thought you had the garang-ness kind of look but now you are such a warm person to be with. I thank God that I have known a person like you..

Wong Jia Hui...Despite of the many ups and downs, God still never fails to make your life so colourful and meaningful...look to Him always, your help comes from the Lord, the Maker of heaven and earth...thanks for all the help and encouragement, and also for lending your ears to listen to my laments and complains..hehe

My head is blank...can't stop 'achooing' and coughing....grrr....I'm too blur to write anymore...got lots to write about..what Ive learnt, What I did....For more on THE camp, do visit here and here. I'll probably continue another day when the grey clouds have moved away and when the sun is up...

I was reading women quotations on the net and I came across some funny and weird ones.Couldn't stop laughing. No offense to the those with the XY chromosome :-p

George Carlin-Here's all you have to know about men and women: women are crazy, men are stupid. And the main reason women are crazy is that men are stupid.
Katharine Hepburn-Sometimes I wonder if men and women really suit each other. Perhaps they should live next door and just visit now and then.
Margaret Thatcher-If you want anything said, ask a man. If you want something done, ask a woman.
Robert A. Heinlien-Women and cats will do as they please, and men and dogs should relax and get used to the idea.
Virginia Woolf-Why are women ... so much more interesting to men than men are to women?

hehe...

:-)

I have the PEACE of GOD that passes all UNDERSTANDING !

I was going against the current

A message with one word means a lot to me.

About 26 hours ago, I was overwhelmed with what was happening until I couldn't take it. I exploded. Thank God He was there to help me pick up the pieces. I coudn't understand so many things. My limited mind found it hard to understand God's infinite-ness.

Recently, I found myself facing so many obstacles in my life. Not because it came suddenly but because I was 'building' them slowly each day until it became a major problem. I was thinking. I'm like a fish, swimming agaist the current, struggling to push myself against the water.Remember in 'Finding Nemo' where all the turtles were moving along the underwater current to get to a different place?. Rather then going against the current, all the turtles relaxed and allowed the current to take them anywhere. I struggle until I become so tired and burned out. God wants me to thrust my whole life unto Him and to let His will unfold in my life. God's will in like the current. Most of the time I choose to go against it because I want to get to a different destination rather than the place where God wants me to go or to do the things He wants me to do.

I pray that God will show me His wisdom in making the right desicions. I pray that I can find courage in confronting my problems(and The Problem).

And we know that all things work together for the GOOD of those who LOVE God, to those who are THE CALLED according to His purpose.

Romans 8:28

Don't bother

Just to kill time before I go and kutip sampah around campus, I thought of typing somthing meaningless.So don't bother reading this. I felt really down yesterday. I hate Sunday nights. More than half of Monday have already passed by. Just the thought of not being able to settle The Problem(to you know who, you know what it is) makes me so frustrated.

Blah.

Oh well...

Now I have to go and be a garbage collector for a day(PKV is organising a gotong-royong after this. Hope many will turn up though)

Batu-Bata

Stress(macamlah I betul-betul stress) has caused me to post this.....bear with me...I'm going nuts :-)

Finally, FINALLY those stupid rocks make sense to me! Once, I saw rocks as...well...of course rocks.What else can you describe a rock other than calling it a...rock if it's big, or a stone if it's small? Now with my newly acquired knowledge(saying it in a proud tone) on rocks, well to be more specific,on minerals, I've finally understood their existence....Finally!Do you know how hard it took me to appreciate rocks? For your information(only for those who care) rocks are composed of different minerals and each mineral is different from each other in so many ways. Each one has a different chemical composition, specific gravity colour, luster, fracture, crystal habit.....whatever....as if you bother. Now I can also say that God is also creative when it comes to making rocks. Really! Betul! A mineral that doesn't look like an ordinary stone to me is chalcedony(agate) because they come in different colours.When I first saw it I was like 'wah, this thing actually exists on this earth'

BERYL

ROSE QUARTZ
TOPAZ
CHALCEDONY
AMETHYST

"And you shall put settings of stones in it, four rows of stones: The first row shall be a sardius, a topaz, and an emerald: this shall be the first row. The second row shall be a turqoise, a sapphire and a diamond. The third row, a jacinth, an agate, and an amethyst and the fourth row, a beryl, an onyx and a jasper. They shall be set in gold settings.." Exodus 28:17-20(In making the breastplate)

The foundations of the wall of the city were adorned with all kinds of precious stones: the first foundation was jasper, the second sapphire, the third chalcedony, the fourth emerald, the fifth sardonyx, the sixth sardius, the seventh chrysolite, the eight beryl, the ninth topaz, the tenth chrysoprase, the eleventh jacinth and the twelfth amethyst. Revelations 21:19-20(The New Jerusalem)

It's 5:39 pm on this computer

Be prepared for a not so orgonized post.

Aiyoh. So many things on my mind. First of all, I am so frustrated with UM's registration system especially Science and Education faculties. There isn't any communication between the lecturers and the registration system. Some lecturers want their class to be small but then the registration system allows so many students to register for that subject. So when some of us 2nd year students enter our first class of that subject(actually meant for 2nd year students), the lecturer sees that the class is too big and therefore she easily says 'only 3rd and 4th year students can join this class. All first and second year students please leave'. It's so was so easy for her to say that without realising that once we drop that subject or any subject for that matter it's going to be so hard to replace the credit hours. So I lost 2 credit hours. Just like that.

And then, I don't know why of all subjects(abt 100 of the luar fakulti subjects) they had to close down 'Iklim dan manusia', the subject that I registered for. There goes another 2 credit hours. Stupid. I had to find a replacement for the 4 credit hrs I lost.

Ever since I was in secondary school, I hated public speaking. It's ok for me to speak in small groups or during a class presentation but to speak infront of people with a certain topic and only 5 mins to prepare is something that I really really dislike. Since I had so little c/h, most of the subjects are full and most of the 'interesting' luar fakulti subjects have been filled up, or it clashes with my other subjects....I was left with no other choice.......but to register for 'SPOKEN ENGLISH FOR PROFESSIONALS'........aiyohhhh.........

And then when I went to that lecture, of all people I had to be the first one to go in front and introduce myself. We had to make it interesting blah, blah, blah...and we had to share our personal experiences. And there are only 10 people in that class. My goodness. But......good points for this class are:

1. Lecturer is so warm and friendly

2. She only gives positive comments to everyone(although some of the students bore all of us with their boring stories...I think I do also..hehe)

3. She also writes down comments on a piece of paper for everyone.

4. Everyone knows everyone in the class. 10 people only compared to our bio lectures with over 200 students in one class.

5.Hopefully I can speak better after this....hehehe

Well, still short of two credit hrs, but I think it's ok...At least I got more time for my three maths stubjects.

What's on my mind now ...

After posting this, I'm going for our Malam Suai Kenal comm meeting which Im in charge of. So many things to think about. Still short of RM300 and the event is next wednesday.Praying very hard about it.

I would really like if people would reply my smses especially when I have asked them about something very important example, if they can come for a meeting, or a practice,etc......bleh......I know, I'm such an impatient person, but not getting an answer makes me so frustrated....

:-p :-) :-/ :-(

Got so much to write yet so little time.

1. Got a room on the highest floor.Aiyoh. Then found out that my room mates are two Christian bumis, one from Sarawak, one from Sabah. Yay!.
2. During geology class(pengenalan kdp mineral, batuan dan fossil), we were told to go look at the minerals and describe their characteristics.(according to structure, colour, fractures, etc). My answers: Mineral epidot-looks like a rock(duh, they all look like ordinary rocks to me), hornblende-has some funny lines on it, biotite-looks shiny, muscovite-looks like a plastic paper(oh, this one certainly doesn't look like a rock to me :p)...all stupid answers..what else to write?..hehe
3. I'm taking three maths subjects. How crazy is that. Calculus, Probability and Maths Asas.
4. Feels so great being a senior. Got a different feeling compared to the time when I was a junior.
5. Still thinking about me and Unsettled Problem which I think we are going to remain like that for the rest of my life. Bleh.
6. How is this semester going to be?busy?hectic?stressful? I commit all to God. I know that He has brought me this far to the place where I am now. There's no turning back. I will press on and I will go in the strength of the Lord...
7. Me got to go balik now to kolej kediaman keempat.

Ladida~

Aiyoh

A few more days and I will be a second year student. So much has happened in my first year. A lot of surprises, new friends, successes(hmmm....), disappointments, frustration and tears. So fast the holidays past by. Just like that. I thought I could settle some issues between me and The Problem, but it's left unsettled.
A new start in this new semester.

I was cracking my head on what the theme for PKV's Malam Suai Kenal should be. After the EXCO comm and Kim Cheng came up with the idea of BANG, then it got me thinking on how the theme is going to be connected to that word. We are going to begin this semester with a BANG! B-new Beginning, A-new Aspirations, N-new Needs, G-new Goals. I don't know what they are going to say about this theme at tomorrow's committee meeting. :-P MSK is my first project that I'm taking charge of. There were times when I was quite stressed because I didn't know what to do. Actually it was a last minute desicion because the person that was assigned by the comm couldn't take up this post. Oh well...I'm half excited and half nervous. So far I think everything is going on well. It's so hard to plan especially during the holidays because we don't meet people and it's hard to know whether they agree or not.

Nutty Friday
Last Friday, three nuts visited a got-life town named Banting. Although life was so evident at this place, one of the nuts said that this town got no life. Now, I wonder why this nut said that. Was it because of what he saw or did not see? Was it because he saw a Ten-Ten supermarket and not a Jusco?Was it because he saw two rows of old shop-houses and not two rows of tall buildings?

I wonder why...hmmmm

So these three nuts, a nut from Banting, and Not-A-Nut spent the whole Friday afternoon together. They went to a hill named Jugra hoping to catch the sunset. But before the sun even setted, some of the nuts decided that they begin their journey down the hill and head home for dinner because it was too hot for them to bear(especially that nut who wore jeans!)

After dinner it was time to say goodbye. The 4 nuts said their goodbyes to Not-A-Nut after dropping her at her house. The nuts were heading for Putrajaya to take photos of the bridges(macamlah tak pernah tengok jambatan). Being together for a few hours, the 4 nuts and Not-A-Nut enjoyed themselves(correct?) at this got-life town named Banting. Will they come back again? We shall see....

hehehe.....