I was reading women quotations on the net and I came across some funny and weird ones.Couldn't stop laughing. No offense to the those with the XY chromosome :-p

George Carlin-Here's all you have to know about men and women: women are crazy, men are stupid. And the main reason women are crazy is that men are stupid.
Katharine Hepburn-Sometimes I wonder if men and women really suit each other. Perhaps they should live next door and just visit now and then.
Margaret Thatcher-If you want anything said, ask a man. If you want something done, ask a woman.
Robert A. Heinlien-Women and cats will do as they please, and men and dogs should relax and get used to the idea.
Virginia Woolf-Why are women ... so much more interesting to men than men are to women?

hehe...

:-)

I have the PEACE of GOD that passes all UNDERSTANDING !

I was going against the current

A message with one word means a lot to me.

About 26 hours ago, I was overwhelmed with what was happening until I couldn't take it. I exploded. Thank God He was there to help me pick up the pieces. I coudn't understand so many things. My limited mind found it hard to understand God's infinite-ness.

Recently, I found myself facing so many obstacles in my life. Not because it came suddenly but because I was 'building' them slowly each day until it became a major problem. I was thinking. I'm like a fish, swimming agaist the current, struggling to push myself against the water.Remember in 'Finding Nemo' where all the turtles were moving along the underwater current to get to a different place?. Rather then going against the current, all the turtles relaxed and allowed the current to take them anywhere. I struggle until I become so tired and burned out. God wants me to thrust my whole life unto Him and to let His will unfold in my life. God's will in like the current. Most of the time I choose to go against it because I want to get to a different destination rather than the place where God wants me to go or to do the things He wants me to do.

I pray that God will show me His wisdom in making the right desicions. I pray that I can find courage in confronting my problems(and The Problem).

And we know that all things work together for the GOOD of those who LOVE God, to those who are THE CALLED according to His purpose.

Romans 8:28

Don't bother

Just to kill time before I go and kutip sampah around campus, I thought of typing somthing meaningless.So don't bother reading this. I felt really down yesterday. I hate Sunday nights. More than half of Monday have already passed by. Just the thought of not being able to settle The Problem(to you know who, you know what it is) makes me so frustrated.

Blah.

Oh well...

Now I have to go and be a garbage collector for a day(PKV is organising a gotong-royong after this. Hope many will turn up though)

Batu-Bata

Stress(macamlah I betul-betul stress) has caused me to post this.....bear with me...I'm going nuts :-)

Finally, FINALLY those stupid rocks make sense to me! Once, I saw rocks as...well...of course rocks.What else can you describe a rock other than calling it a...rock if it's big, or a stone if it's small? Now with my newly acquired knowledge(saying it in a proud tone) on rocks, well to be more specific,on minerals, I've finally understood their existence....Finally!Do you know how hard it took me to appreciate rocks? For your information(only for those who care) rocks are composed of different minerals and each mineral is different from each other in so many ways. Each one has a different chemical composition, specific gravity colour, luster, fracture, crystal habit.....whatever....as if you bother. Now I can also say that God is also creative when it comes to making rocks. Really! Betul! A mineral that doesn't look like an ordinary stone to me is chalcedony(agate) because they come in different colours.When I first saw it I was like 'wah, this thing actually exists on this earth'

BERYL

ROSE QUARTZ
TOPAZ
CHALCEDONY
AMETHYST

"And you shall put settings of stones in it, four rows of stones: The first row shall be a sardius, a topaz, and an emerald: this shall be the first row. The second row shall be a turqoise, a sapphire and a diamond. The third row, a jacinth, an agate, and an amethyst and the fourth row, a beryl, an onyx and a jasper. They shall be set in gold settings.." Exodus 28:17-20(In making the breastplate)

The foundations of the wall of the city were adorned with all kinds of precious stones: the first foundation was jasper, the second sapphire, the third chalcedony, the fourth emerald, the fifth sardonyx, the sixth sardius, the seventh chrysolite, the eight beryl, the ninth topaz, the tenth chrysoprase, the eleventh jacinth and the twelfth amethyst. Revelations 21:19-20(The New Jerusalem)

It's 5:39 pm on this computer

Be prepared for a not so orgonized post.

Aiyoh. So many things on my mind. First of all, I am so frustrated with UM's registration system especially Science and Education faculties. There isn't any communication between the lecturers and the registration system. Some lecturers want their class to be small but then the registration system allows so many students to register for that subject. So when some of us 2nd year students enter our first class of that subject(actually meant for 2nd year students), the lecturer sees that the class is too big and therefore she easily says 'only 3rd and 4th year students can join this class. All first and second year students please leave'. It's so was so easy for her to say that without realising that once we drop that subject or any subject for that matter it's going to be so hard to replace the credit hours. So I lost 2 credit hours. Just like that.

And then, I don't know why of all subjects(abt 100 of the luar fakulti subjects) they had to close down 'Iklim dan manusia', the subject that I registered for. There goes another 2 credit hours. Stupid. I had to find a replacement for the 4 credit hrs I lost.

Ever since I was in secondary school, I hated public speaking. It's ok for me to speak in small groups or during a class presentation but to speak infront of people with a certain topic and only 5 mins to prepare is something that I really really dislike. Since I had so little c/h, most of the subjects are full and most of the 'interesting' luar fakulti subjects have been filled up, or it clashes with my other subjects....I was left with no other choice.......but to register for 'SPOKEN ENGLISH FOR PROFESSIONALS'........aiyohhhh.........

And then when I went to that lecture, of all people I had to be the first one to go in front and introduce myself. We had to make it interesting blah, blah, blah...and we had to share our personal experiences. And there are only 10 people in that class. My goodness. But......good points for this class are:

1. Lecturer is so warm and friendly

2. She only gives positive comments to everyone(although some of the students bore all of us with their boring stories...I think I do also..hehe)

3. She also writes down comments on a piece of paper for everyone.

4. Everyone knows everyone in the class. 10 people only compared to our bio lectures with over 200 students in one class.

5.Hopefully I can speak better after this....hehehe

Well, still short of two credit hrs, but I think it's ok...At least I got more time for my three maths stubjects.

What's on my mind now ...

After posting this, I'm going for our Malam Suai Kenal comm meeting which Im in charge of. So many things to think about. Still short of RM300 and the event is next wednesday.Praying very hard about it.

I would really like if people would reply my smses especially when I have asked them about something very important example, if they can come for a meeting, or a practice,etc......bleh......I know, I'm such an impatient person, but not getting an answer makes me so frustrated....

:-p :-) :-/ :-(

Got so much to write yet so little time.

1. Got a room on the highest floor.Aiyoh. Then found out that my room mates are two Christian bumis, one from Sarawak, one from Sabah. Yay!.
2. During geology class(pengenalan kdp mineral, batuan dan fossil), we were told to go look at the minerals and describe their characteristics.(according to structure, colour, fractures, etc). My answers: Mineral epidot-looks like a rock(duh, they all look like ordinary rocks to me), hornblende-has some funny lines on it, biotite-looks shiny, muscovite-looks like a plastic paper(oh, this one certainly doesn't look like a rock to me :p)...all stupid answers..what else to write?..hehe
3. I'm taking three maths subjects. How crazy is that. Calculus, Probability and Maths Asas.
4. Feels so great being a senior. Got a different feeling compared to the time when I was a junior.
5. Still thinking about me and Unsettled Problem which I think we are going to remain like that for the rest of my life. Bleh.
6. How is this semester going to be?busy?hectic?stressful? I commit all to God. I know that He has brought me this far to the place where I am now. There's no turning back. I will press on and I will go in the strength of the Lord...
7. Me got to go balik now to kolej kediaman keempat.

Ladida~

Aiyoh

A few more days and I will be a second year student. So much has happened in my first year. A lot of surprises, new friends, successes(hmmm....), disappointments, frustration and tears. So fast the holidays past by. Just like that. I thought I could settle some issues between me and The Problem, but it's left unsettled.
A new start in this new semester.

I was cracking my head on what the theme for PKV's Malam Suai Kenal should be. After the EXCO comm and Kim Cheng came up with the idea of BANG, then it got me thinking on how the theme is going to be connected to that word. We are going to begin this semester with a BANG! B-new Beginning, A-new Aspirations, N-new Needs, G-new Goals. I don't know what they are going to say about this theme at tomorrow's committee meeting. :-P MSK is my first project that I'm taking charge of. There were times when I was quite stressed because I didn't know what to do. Actually it was a last minute desicion because the person that was assigned by the comm couldn't take up this post. Oh well...I'm half excited and half nervous. So far I think everything is going on well. It's so hard to plan especially during the holidays because we don't meet people and it's hard to know whether they agree or not.

Nutty Friday
Last Friday, three nuts visited a got-life town named Banting. Although life was so evident at this place, one of the nuts said that this town got no life. Now, I wonder why this nut said that. Was it because of what he saw or did not see? Was it because he saw a Ten-Ten supermarket and not a Jusco?Was it because he saw two rows of old shop-houses and not two rows of tall buildings?

I wonder why...hmmmm

So these three nuts, a nut from Banting, and Not-A-Nut spent the whole Friday afternoon together. They went to a hill named Jugra hoping to catch the sunset. But before the sun even setted, some of the nuts decided that they begin their journey down the hill and head home for dinner because it was too hot for them to bear(especially that nut who wore jeans!)

After dinner it was time to say goodbye. The 4 nuts said their goodbyes to Not-A-Nut after dropping her at her house. The nuts were heading for Putrajaya to take photos of the bridges(macamlah tak pernah tengok jambatan). Being together for a few hours, the 4 nuts and Not-A-Nut enjoyed themselves(correct?) at this got-life town named Banting. Will they come back again? We shall see....

hehehe.....

A Week Of Weird-ness

My maid wrapped the unripe mangoes on our tress with newspaper. Well, this is the first time I'm seeing the mango tree in front of my house with newspaper-wrapped mangoes because we usually don't wrap them. As soon as it is ripe we eat them. So, it's not unusual for people to wrap their unripe fruits. You can see it almost everywhere. You can see it at your neighbours house or at an orchad. People do that to so that unwanted creatures such as the birds or the squirrels will not eat them. It's normal. But the reason why my maid wraps them? No no, it's not because of the birds and the squirrels.She does it so that the unwanted creature, the gardener's wife does not steal them. Seriously.

A friend gave my dad two grape plants. He got so excited. Most probably he pictures a vineyard (Malaysian style) behind our house. Just kidding, just kidding. It's weird(in a good way) to see him so engrossed with two small grape plants. He even bought wood to make some sort of frame so that this creeper like plant can...well..creep on it. I don't know a better way to describe it. Oh, and he asks me to sing to it everyday to ensure optimum growth. Not seriously.

Since it's been raining everyday, my mum has covered the soil with plastic bag so that it doesn't get too much water to avoid it from being drown...hehehe

Panda, my dog is not a dog. She's afraid of chickens, cats, rats and goats and she doesn't bothers to chase one. This reminds me of an incident where a goat(you see, my Taman is such a happening place. Sometimes, you'd be able to see goats lepaking around, because some of the Indians at the nearby ladang kelapa sawit rear goats [oh and this reminds me of another particular incident that happened long, long time ago. A time when my Taman was a happening place for the cows. Seriously. So. My brother and his girl friends were walking from/to..not sure..the kindergarten. And there was this cow roaming around and he got scared. Read carefully. HE got scared.Not SHE/THEY got scared. He thought the cow was chasing him..hehehe..oh Im so going to die for saying this]) Coming back, coming back...This reminds me of an incident where a goat came into the house compound. There, my dog was standing in front of the goat trying to prove her macho-ness but I know she's terrified to the max. Suddenly, the goat nudges my dog with its two horns. Ouch! I certainly didnt see that coming what more did my dog. Poor thing.

No no..that is not related to my week of weird-ness. Yesterday, Panda shared its dinner with a mouse. Seriously. Yuks. I've not seen a mouse/rat running around for many,many years. There I was standing, looking at my dog finish up her dinner outside of my house. It was at night. Then suddenly I saw this thing moving in the shadows. I looked closer. It was a small mouce and it was eating the grains of rice on the floor. What on earth was it doing there? It was not even scared of Panda or me standing there and this dog was not even aware of it....I find it weird.

What a weird week I tell you...

OOoops!....abang already knows UPS & downs. :-)
Who else knows ah?

Last weekend was a busy one for me. Busy at YF. Busy at church. Busy at Sunday School. It's all worth it. Not for my own glory but for God's glory.It's so great to serve an awesome and holy God. I've really enjoyed myself the past three days at my church Sunday School's Vacational Fun Class. 231 children! Brats will be brats,but they are still so adorable and cute. When I look at those children, I imagine what they will be like when they grow up and how they'll look like.(oh, one of my hobbies is looking at people and figuring out what they might be thinking..hehehe) I imagine one fat boy to be a big sized man when he grows up, probably he'll be a businessman one day because I can already see dolar signs in his eyes. :p And then there's this cute and pretty girl, I think she's going to be a popular girl at secondary school with a lot of boys tagging behind her :-) I find them interesting to look at. Miniature human beings. Always feeling confused, always want attention, always want their way. Are we not like them also?

I admire my mum's faith (she's the ssch superintendent). People(and I'm one of them) did not believe that we could handle 231 children in our VFC. There are just too many kids to handle. What about space and man power? Who's going to control those kids?. Something which she said that struck me, 'when God sends these little children, we do not turn them away'.In the end, there were enough teachers and helpers. The church hall was just enough to fit everyone during worship and the main theme talks. Some who were not involved also came to show their support. My mum totally surrenders everything to God, and prayer has been an important part all this while. Everything went on so well during these 3 days that there weren't any problems at all. The weather was good it wasn't raining. Thank God! The teachers were able to control their own students. Those kids enjoyed themselves and their singing during worship really moved us. Now as they are back home with their family, playing, running, watching TV, or being a brat/clown in front of everyone, I pray that each one of them remember what they have learnt and keep in them the message and hope that they have heard and received.

What shall I put as title?

Back to the lowlands. The highlands was so cool and refreshing. I really needed that to release whatever stress I was facing (imagine being stressed during the holidays, it's terrible). Well unfortunately I didn't feel too good when I came back. I think yesterday was my lowest point(emotionally I guess) during the holidays because I just couldn't stop thinking about the situation that I'm in, the problem(not problems) that I'm facing right now and that someone. I'm so very geram. Thank God today I've cooled down a lot.

Note: Sorry to those who are reading my blog. Lately my posts have been rather on the down side. I really didn't expect things to be like this...

Church Family Camp was OK and not as bad as I have expected. Cheffoo Methodist Centre is a nice place to have a camp. It's so spacious with so many trees surrounding it. Oh, and I really miss 'sayang-ing' the big, fat brown dog that belongs to the caretaker....sob,sob... Anyway, I think I wouldn't have survive for three days if two most important people were not there-meng yee & paik shing.(YES, you meng yee :p, don't mind ya I mentioned your name..hehe). This is my first camp that I stayed up late because I was actually talking to someone. Seriously. Had a good time of sharing. I think I've learnt some things from you. :-) I was afraid this camp will not turn out well for me, but I was a bit wrong. Speaker was good. Thank God for people like paik shing to be my interpreter. Yes, this speaker spoke in Mandarin without translation! Actually I was prepared to read a book while he's speaking. After all there were only 2 theme talks so I didn't mind if I couldn't understand(remember, I was not thinking straight when I made the decision to join this camp) But thank God that He could still speak to me through this man despite of the language barrier. I learnt a lot from him. Well, what do I regret? I think I regret not spending time to talk to certain people, to that someone (Shy, shy) I wish I could mix more freely but again, I think it's the language barrier. I think it takes time but I wish language would not continue to be the major problem. (Yup, I know-learn Chinese! :-p)

Cameron Highlands always brings back a lot of good memories especially RBS 3 years ago. I miss the good things we experienced, the loads of fun we had and the frendships that were made. I miss going to T-Cafe(yummy food!). I miss looking at the stars at night or early mornings when we went jogging. I miss looking at the moving clouds that seem so close to us. I miss the sessions we had with different speakers and the morning devotions. I miss everything!

Oh well......

I'm off to CAMERON HIGHLANDS tomorrow.
Am I excited?
NO
Have I packed?
NO
Am I ready to go?
NO
Why did I decide to go?
Because I was not thinking straight when I made that decision

I'm so glad that my YF singing competition went on so well. It went on so well that while I was playing, the stupid files on the piano suddenly fell onto the piano keys and that created such a loud noise. My goodness gracious me. And it wasnt even my files. It was another pianist's files. I'm feeling bad because I was playing for another group and not mine~sigh~ But the good thing is I still managed to continue playing despite of the MAJOR disruption. I'm sure everybody turned their heads towards me at that moment. So memalukan. But anyway, I thank God that everything went on well when I played for the two soloists and the duet from my group. The duet got 1st place and one of the soloists got 3rd. Well, everyone had a great time tonight.

I'm not feeling too good.*the thunder was so loud, and the wind is so strong outside* Having mixed feelings about everything. The next three days is going to be so dreadful. I don't know. I just pray that this camp would be a refreshing one where I could have a quiet time being alone with God. Maybe I could use this time to ponder about certain things. Oh well.....

WELCOME BACK JIA HUI & CHRIS(if you're reading this)!
...and I'm going to camerons tomorrow. Camp is at Chefoo Methodist Centre at Brinchang~sigh~ I should really stop sighing and start packing!

sad sad post

~sigh~
Feeling melancholic. Feeling blue. Feeling lonely. I just came back from practice and during practice I was feeling so sad and angry. Not because of the practice itself. Maybe there are reasons why I felt like that but it came suddenly.
~sigh~
Feeling scared. Feeling nervous. I fear of being alone in a large group of people. Fear of being left out. Not always but sometimes.Church camp is on Sunday. That's why I'm feeling like that now.
~sigh~
Feel like crying!

Have been pretty busy these past few days. My YF is going to have a singing competition this Saturday and everyone is busy practising their songs. I on the other hand am busy practising my piano everyday. I think I'm busy lah. I don't really feel that playing the piano makes me busy. Anyway I'm feeling a bit nervous about it because I'll be playing for two soloists and 1 duet from my group and also for another group's performance.*phew* I'm going to be so busy that night but I thank God that I have this chance to perform. I just pray that I don't make any mistakes that will affect their singing and will eventually affect their points. My group will be singing a chinese song. Chinese song you know! Some more kena hafal the song! How many of you bananas out there can memorize a Chinese song eh?..hehe :D

Yay! Yay! They are all coming back from Camp Camerons this Saturday! I'm the only one feeling so happy and I'm sure they will be so reluctant to come back. Good.Why am I so happy? The one and only reason is, after getting my friends' messages that they're really enjoying it so much, I felt that I should have gone in the first place. But right now, I don't really regret not going because I get to spend more time mixing around with my church members and participating in this singing competition. Plus, I have a Sunday School class to take care of. I can't leave them for three weeks!

What have I been doing during the holidays? Oh I have been following the Singapore Chinese Serial 'Tong Xin Yuan' on channel 19 at 7pm faithfully every day. Pity Dad. TV is booked from 7pm to 8pm everyday. He cannot watch anything during that one hour! But too sad, the final episode is on Friday and I can't follow any more mandarin serials after that because my holidays will be for another 5 more weeks. I don't have enough time to finish watching all the episodes. Bleh. I've been following American Idol also. Of course none of the singers can beat Clay Aiken, the runner up from season 2 and also Kelly Clarkson. Clay's my favourite so far. This season, I was hoping for Elliot Yamin to win, but it's so sad he was eliminated last week.Oh well, I hope Taylor Hicks will win because he's more consistent than Katherine McPhee. We shall see....

A lot of things are going through my head right now. Some people may say 'let go', but it's hard to do so because I still don't understand the things that happen and what is going through that person's mind. It's especially hard when I don't have the answers. Do I need to understand in order to let go?

Before I end...

I like this statement by James Hudson Taylor, 'Do not have your concert first and tune your instruments afterward. Begin the day with God'. To everyone of you, begin your day with God and allow Him to lead you throughout the whole day!

Letters

Today I'm so happy I received a postcard from my friend who's in Camp Camerons. Didn't expect him to send me one. :p Yesterday Miss Close-and-Gila friend sent me a letter and today from his postcard, I found out both of them are in the same chalet. She's the mama, he's the son. How ironic. I wonder how the mama is treating her son...hehe..Looks like they're having a blast up there while I'm down here moaning and groaning to myself. Oh well, I think the good thing is I'm having the rest that I need but then too much rest can make a person so lazy and unproductive. Now I'm trying to study the book of 1st Samuel and hopefully I can finish studying 1st and 2nd Samuel in these 11/2 months of holiday.

Cycling

I don't think my friends know that I like to cycle. It's weird though but yeah, that's me-I like cycling. I find it so peaceful and I'm able to reflect on certain things. Once in a while I'll be able to spot a few familiar car number plates when I'm cyling along the road of my Taman beside the main road (I don't know how to describe this) and most of the time, in the evenings the sky would look so beautiful with different hues of orange and purple adorning it.

Myfriend

I just cannot get over this. I really cherish the friendship we had (still have) but I still don't know what's the problem that caused both of us not to talk. That's what I feel is happening now. Like I said, I'm so shy when it comes to approaching different people. Yup,it's a real disadvantage to me. But that's me. I'm trying my best to talk. Of course some people would say that I talk a lot but only to them that I talk a lot.Sigh.Myfriend has been a very good friend to me and to others also. Quite encouraging at times(most of the time) and is a good Christian. Sometimes I'm confused. I wonder why do I bother so much of not being able to talk to Myfriend. Why do I trouble myself with this? I think I know the answer. I really feel like telling this person what I feel. I might be feeling tired of keeping it all to myself although Miss Close-And-Gila friend who's in Camerons knows about this. I might be feeling tired of speculating things and figuring out the possiblities of why this is happening. Why? Why? I really would like to know if it's my fault then probably I could fix it. Then again I wont get the answer because I'm a coward. I'm too afraid to aprroach Myfriend.

Blog

I don't care if people read my blog or not. It's just a place where I could just pour out my feelings although I would not want to spill the beans and let anyone know what exactly is happening in my life :p And I've not reached that stage where I will infuse serious issues in my posts. Not yet. Maybe once in a blue moon or when I'm ready to do so. I don't know.....

Pain

There are times when the least expected circumstances occur in my life. Well, now I'm in that kind of situation. I thought my holidays would be a joyful one where I'd be enjoying each passing day doing something productive. I thought that there will not be any problems in my life especially during the holidays. No. I've been caught up in a series of slight depression and feeling a little bit sad sometimes. It is not clearly shown on my face but it hurts so bad inside me especially when I have nothing to keep me busy and the time that I have is used in figuring out why certain things happen. It's frustrating not knowing the answers to all the questions that keeps popping in my mind. This whole problem is revolving around one person. I don't know why Myfriend has suddenly changed. Or have I changed? I'm so confused at times of why this is happening to me. I'm so confused because I don't have the answers to why Myfriend is like that. Maybe I'm exaggerating. I really don't know. I keep on thinking back to the few times when I could have a full conversation with Myfriend face to face but now it has become almost impossible to do so. Sometimes I wish I have the courage to approach people( esp Myfriend). I have the tendency of being an introvert in front certain people and an extrovert in front of another group of people (I'm an ambivert, hah, at least I've not forgotten what I've learnt in psychology)....ahhh!....I feel like running to a beach and shouting at the wide ocean in front of me.

I'm struggling. I've been having long conversations with God. But I thank Him that I'm still sane and have not gone bonkers. I am reminded about something. My relationship with God is above all other relationshps. I will not allow the problems that I'm facing in my relationship with people to weaken my relationship with God.

You

I didn't expect for it to happen like this

I thought everything was fine until one day everything just changed

You suddenly became cold

You were not the person I knew

Till today I do not know why you are reacting like this

Did I say something wrong?

Did I let you down?

There are many questions waiting to be answered

Only you can answer them

But it will never happen. I know

There isn't a moment when I will not think about you

The more I think the more hurtful it gets

How long will it go on?

How long will I hold on to this useless hope?

When will I let it go?

When will I let you go?

:-(

:-)

:-

A tribute to A113

Sometimes I find it hard to let go of some things that are close to my heart.

As I was packing my things it dawned to me that I'm going to be doing this every year.(wah susahnya). So often I don't like change because I have to start adapting all over again. I guess in some situations change can be a good thing because then only will I learn to be thankful of what I have.

So I was packing my things in A113 on Wednesday. I was thinking to myself how fast time flew. I remember the first week of my life in university when so many 'firsts' happened. First time walking into a building which has the 70s look.(old and gloomy). First time stepping into a very musty and dusty room. First time sharing rooms with complete strangers (excluding camps). First time asking so many people their names and end up forgetting every name.

A SATU SATU TIGA

A113 gave me many good and bad memories. The bad ones first. There were many instances where I just felt like shouting at my room mate for talking loudly on the handphone in the early morning hours . I blame her for all the sleepless nights I had but thankfully this semester she decided to 'migrate' to her bestfriend's room though she comes back just to change and hang her wet clothes. Other bad memories include my room mates and their friends barging into the room in the middle of the night(I just wonder what they were doing the whole night). And it doesn't end there. They will start talking and talking and talking. I mean be considerate lar if it's past 1am or 2am they should tone down their voices. It was really frustrating especially when I had a class at 8am the next day or a test. So these are the bad ones.

The good ones. hmMm?....hMmM?...hmMm?...Ok lar...I'm exaggerating. Nanthini, one of my room mates was kind to me in little little things such as 'tapaoing'(I can't find any other better word) food for me whenever I had a class during meal time. There were times when we laughed together but it was rare. BUT I will surely miss the MONKEYS! My room faces a small patch of jungle and that's where the monkeys come from. They have entertained me without fail every evening. Sometimes while I'm studying a monkey will suddenly appear on the wire netting directly in front of me. If only I have a picture. Anyway, as strange I may be, I find them quite cute and adorable although some people would beg to differ! :-)

I will miss you, A113.

I don't know what the future holds for you and me.

I know the chances are low.

I might not be able to see you again.

Goodbye!

Bleh.

I will be getting a different room with different room mates next semester. I definitely will not be in block A. I just hope and hope it won't be on the top floor.

One thing God has taught me is to be patient. This includes being considerate even though people may be inconsiderate towards you. This may seem unfair or it is as if I'm being taken advantage of but I know that it is the right thing to do.

It is finished!

Finally!

But I am not as excited as before maybe because this time exam was a lot more tougher compared to last semester. Anwyay, I should really stop moaning and groaning because I have two months of holidays ahead...hmmm... Now I'm worried of what am I going to do during the 2 months. Terrible me. No holiday I complain, got holiday also I complain. What else do I want? :P

Last night was great. Went out with my two very close and gila friends from college-Jia Hui and Jean Nee. After meeting with Kok How and the gang at third walked up the hill(is it a hill in the first place?..hmm) to 8th college.Yup, we were the only insane ones walking up the slope at night. It was a peaceful walk . Then we walked down and went to Dewan Tunku Canselor and sat there till 1.30am. It was good. We talked and talked and talked like nobody's business.

It's quite sad to know that they'll be leaving college and I'll be stuck alone with people whom I'm not closed to. No more sharing sessions till late at night. No more makaning together at dewan santapan. Well, it's all been good, the past 2 semesters. I agree to what Jean Nee says-God has a purpose for each one of us and it's not a coincidence that we ended up in UM.

20 April 2006

The past few days were stressful days for me and now I am so very very relieved. Never in my uni life will I take 3 papers on the same day. Learnt my lesson the hard way but it was an experience I can say. Not a nice one though. Imagine sitting for paper after paper. Terrible. Tiring. I just cannot believe that I've actually finished all the 3 papers today and I'm sitting here in the library com lab blogging. No more lamenting to my mother how hard my exams are..for a time being of course. The lamentings will not end there for sure. There are more exams to come..dreadful-nya..

But,

despite of all the stress and pressure,

despite of all the tears[yeah cried a bit last night :-(..heheh..yup I'm a cry baby],

despite of all the times worrying and not knowing what to expect,

I want to thank God,

for His peace,

for His strength,

for His assurance,

for His patience towards me (I should really stop grumbling and complaining :P)

Without Him in my life what would be of me...

Thank You my Heavenly Father.

NOW I'm waiting for my dad to fetch me, and then I'm going to makan dinner, and then I'm going to RBS graduation(hope to see my pals whom I've not seen since RBS 2003), and then I'm going home(Yay!), and then I've to remind myself that exam is not over, I still have one more last paper next tuesday.

Random thoughts

I want to study but I just can't concentrate. I feel so tired. I just cannot cramp in some more information.

Have you ever had this reaction,
I like someone. I try to look at him when he's not looking. When he's looking I turn away. Pretend I'm not looking. When there isn't any chance to talk disappointment seeps in.

The feeling is terrible. This is the trouble with blogging. Someone should stop me before I blurt everything out. Just a thought, if my brother reads this I'm so dead :P

Today, I drove to town and I passed a row of beautiful trees on both sides of the road.
They were covered with either pink or white flowers I could barely see the leaves.
It looked like spring.
The scene was so lovely that my heart leaped for joy and I started thanking God.

If only I had a camera. If only I have a digital camera in the first place.

(oh I just realised someone whom I don't know, who lives here has a picture of this. I grabbed it from his/her friendster. I think it was taken last year)

It's only about 1/8 of what I saw because this picture doesn't include the whole stretch of road.

Just now's Maundy Thursday service was good. Did a lot of reflecting on my life. My dad's message in church did remind me a few things which I so often take forgranted.

Just some random thoughts before the day ends.

FRUSTRATION = Wanting something so badly that seems so near yet so far.

Why am I still waiting? I'll end up waiting for the rest of my life.


Since I'm so bored reading TITAS, I've decided to waste my time blogging. Is it considered a waste of time?....hmmm....

Anyway,

Today I'm glad because..

• I played the piano during worship although I hope the song leader didn't mind me making a few mistakes :P (if you are reading this...you did a good job. God looks at the heart when we worship Him) Glad that I can serve God in this area.
• I shared to my SS students about the resurrection of Jesus and how He conquered death. Thank God for giving me this opportunity of being able to share this good news to others.
• My sister and brother came back.
• I could sayang little Debbie and play with her.
• We had a double birthday celebration dinner today-mum & mike
• I know that I am living under God's grace
• I know that nothing in this world can seperate me from the love of God.

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Everytime I update my blog, so many things have already passed by. This shows how terribly lazy I am in updating my blog. But thanks to Jia Hui, I'm influenced by her semangat to blog :P

And also I've realised Kat has linked me on her blog *gasp* All the more I need to update often.

Well, for a start, for today's post, after a long time not not typing, and people waiting and waiting for me to update...for a start it has been a bad bad day. I've not even gone through half of the day and I'm already assuming that it will be bad. Today didn't start off very well. I'm very disappointed with my first exam I had this morning. My lecturer calls it a test but the extent of it's difficulty doesn't make it like a test at all. I feel terrible. I'm really trying to be optimistic right now, but how? I have one week of study leave next week and after that more exams. Worst still, I'm not looking forward to 2oth April coz I have 3 quite difficult papers on the same day-philosphy, psychology,bio cell. Should I say 'die lar'? I don't know. Right now I leave it all to God. I know that whenever I commit all to Him, I need to trust in Him also and not worry a lot. Hope to have this in mind throughout the exam period.

On a happier note, I'm truly blessed to be here in UM. The semester is going to end and I'm going to be a senior, a second year student, no more a junior, no more senior to junior kacau from kok how anymore coz he can kacau the new juniors..yay!...keke..Anyway it's been so great knowing fellow PKVians seniors and juniors alike because im truly encouraged by each one of them. It's so funny to know how God loves variety because he created everyone differently each with his/her own unique personality. I'm so thankful to know different( I stress DIFFERENT) people her in uni :P

This year's birthday was the best one I had in 20 years. (hmm...I think so) Coz it's totally opposite to last year when I celebrated(hmm..did I even celebrate?) my birthday. Last year was so depressing. B'day last year was on easter but couldn't go for the Sunday school easter picnic coz dad met with an accident. Another terrible thing happened on that day but I can't remember what. And lagi depressing, friends were not in town to celebrate. So sad. BUT this year was do different cos I had a group of people to celebrate it with me. First, my whole family(except big bro) took me out for dinner. To food was so good that I ate like a pig :P. Then in college my friends took me out to 7th college. Of course it was not a surprise coz Jia Hui told me earlier :-) It was so great having them around. We laughed and laughed like mad people and the girls had some sharing session after the guys left. It was good. The whole day I enjoyed myself so much. I really thank God for friends. What will happen to me if theree are no friends around?

AS I reflect back on what happen and as I was typing, I just realised that my mood has changed from being disappointed to being happy. There are so many things to thank God for and sometimes I take for granted the little things that happen in my life.

Hope the next post in my blog won't be after I have graduated! We shall see....

Today doesn't feel like a Sunday

The feeling is so odd. I'm sitting in the library on a Sunday afternoon. I didn't go back home this weekened. I didn't go to my church and I didn't meet the people whom I always meet every week. I can't watch my favourite shows on TV. I can't chat on MSN messenger.*sigh* Maybe I'm just too spoilt. I just wonder how I'm going to cope next time when I'm posted to a school. far, far away(if that happens lar), I might not be able to come back so often.

I was so reluctant to come back to UM during our holidays but last Wednesday and Thursday I had choir practice in college. But it didn't turn out the way I thought it would be. I felt it was fun and not too stressful. I thought also I would be bored but actually I enjoyed it caused I had a lot of laughing sessions among the choir members and our irritating choir master..hehe..I thank God that although it may be stressful at times I can still enjoy the time of practicing and being with my choir members. I think I should also get to know them better because I don't know some of them.

Friday and Saturday were really, really, really, busy and (maybe stressful) days for me. I have never attended a meeting that will go on for at least 13 hours a day, what more two days in a row. PKV had its commitee planning retreat on those two days. It was not a retreat I can tell you and it's only the first part. Our second part is in March and I wonder how it will be. But to look on the positive side, I feel that it's truly an eye opener for me because it is something that I have never experienced before. I thank God that it went on well and I pray that each one of the commitee member has gained something out of it although it was just evaluating and planning. I pray that we will continue to see the needs of PKV and to know that in everything that we do, we do it for God's glory and honour.

So many things are happening in my life. I have so many feelings and emotions about certain things and issues. Sometimes I don't really know what is my true indentity. There is so much more to discover and experience in life, I sometimes feel whether I will be able to cope. But I still keep walking, I still keep moving on...

Happy Valentine's Day!...to yours truly and to those who are reading(if there is any..heheh)

Every year, I look forward to this day. Not that I expect much to happen to me(really, nothing significant has ever happen in my life on this day). It's just that I like to wish something special will happen. But then is it worth it, thinking like that? I have everything that I need. My family loves me so much and I know that my God loves me with a love that can never fail. One thing I enjoy though is reading in the newspapers about how people put in so much effort to make this a special day for their loved ones:-buying hundreds of roses that cost almost a month's salary for some people, and today in the papers it was highlighted that someone is going to receive a huge red bear which costs about RM900 something.My gosh, where on earth is she going to put it? I wonder what her reaction is when the big teddy bear is sent to her office. What will my rection be...hmm..If only he could just give me that RM900 and let me spend it freely.

It is weird, to know that amidst of all the celebration about love, there is so much more going on in this world. The world is broken. We live in a broken world where there is so much of suffering and pain. People inflicting pain on others. Why? Because everyone has different beliefs and principles of life. If you don't accept what I believe, then you must suffer the consequences. What I think is right but you may think it's wrong. People have become so self-centred and yet they are so angry most of the time.

Something that I look forward to...

'Then I saw a new heaven and a new earth, for the first heaven and the first earth had passed away..' Revelation 21:1

'Now the dwelling of God is with men, and He will live with them. They will be his people, and God himself will be with them and be their God. He will wipe away every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.'

Revelation 21:3

If I were to compare myself to when I was 18/19 years old, I feel that I'm so different. Now I can be so moody and sometimes so melancholic..I also don't know why..probably because everything is so different and its like a transition period for me. Also I think I've become more demanding not for material things lar..but rather I want things according to my way so I ask God to do this, this and this...terrible me..

Anyway I thank God for what happened this month. Chinese New Year was a real hebat time for me. Everyone came back and the house was packed with people. We had an additional member, baby Laura with us to celebrate this time...hmm..it seems that ever year there will be a new member..God is good! :-) As usual mummy cooked her trademark dish-oyster chicken which is my favourite dish. Something unique about my family is that during our reunion dinner, there will be three Chinese(and another half Chinese half Kadazan), 5 Chindians, 3 Indian-Chinese-Kadazan, the rest are Indians ..let me see did I leave out anyone? :P it's complicated but it's truly Malaysian...we have the 3 main races in our family: Chinese, Indian and Bumiputera. Then as usual we will have some yee sang Wuey Ping will prepare it every year. It's not everyone's favourite but I like it a little..hehe..Well, overall, I had a great time. In fact more than I had during Christmas because this time everyone was at home...hmm...but let's see..If I marry a Chinese then I wont be able to come back during new year then everyone will miss me...hehe..what am I talking ..it's a long time more.

Well, I hope to be more optimistic in life. To look at the brighter side of it and not to remain in the dark side. But it's hard to say. Suddenly you are thrown into a situation which you don't really like. And then when we feel so uncomfortable, we start to complain. I think life can be interesting and colourful. It's how we choose to see it and live it. I think today is a happy day for me..thank God..I just pray that everyday will be the same :-)

My latest favourite song by Delirious?
Stronger

We're getting stronger every day
WE're getting braver in every way
Hallelujah here we come
We're getting stronger everday
Push through the waves that fall our way
Hallelujah, here we come
We're much stronger when we're one
Hallelujah here we come

Oh, I love you from the depths of my heart
And nothing here will tear us apart
Everything's beautiful with You
Everything's beautiful when you invade my life
And I'm living just to say I love you

We're getting closer everyday
Chasing the dreams that heaven gave
Hallelujah, here we come
We're getting closer every day
Into your arms I'm here to stay
We're much stronger when we're one
Hallelujah, here we come
Yes, I love You
Oh, I love You

It's so late...why am I not sleeping?..feel like blogging..

I don't really like Sundays because I know I have to go back to uni the next day but I really look forward to Fridays because I can come home. Today I taught Sunday School and I thank God that the two boys understood what I taught. Somtimes it's hard to teach them because I don't know what they are thinking and it's so hard for them to respond. Well, it's a good thing that they know what I taught them. This week will be another hectic week for me. I will be having two tests this thursday. I think during this time of hardship, God wants me to learn many things. But I still don't know what I'm learning. Maybe its patience and perseverance. I know I'm not a very patient person and I really need to be patient more often. I guess when I'm really weak and troubled, it's time for me to surrender my life to God. So often I do things according to my own strength and that's why I always feel tired.

I think despite of all the problems, I can still be joyful. Joy does not depend on circumstances. We can be joyful even though we face trials. This is something I hope to learn in this time of hardship. Hope that I can be joyful all the time.

I'm feeling tired.So tired. So many things are on my mind and it has been a great burden for me to carry. I just wish I can escape everything but I can't. This is the reality of life. It can't be easy all the time. This semester, I have classes from morning till afternoon and most of the days I only go back to my room in the evening. I got so much to study and so many assignments. I really feel like giving up but I can't, I must move on. I'm phisycally tired and mentally tired. I wonder if I can cope. I just entrust everything to God.

I hope to share with someone so that I can release the pressure in me..

I...

I wish......I wish......I wish.....
And nothing happens
Feeling down.....
And then it happens.....
I feel happy.....
And then suddenly....
I'm down again.....
These are my feelings...
About something.....
About someone....

I'm force to think. This is what my education subjects require me to do. It's not that my Science subjects don't make me think but this time it's thinking in a different way. What is my philosophy as a teacher? First of all I don't really like the word philosophy. It sounds so self-centred and what others think don't matter to me. But then come to think of it, this word has
made me realise my role as a teacher (or a teacher-to-be). What is my moral stand? What do I want to instil into my students? What type of knowledge do I want to emphasize?

I want my students to appreciate what they learn and be able to apply whenever necessary. I like it when teachers make me have interest in the certain subject. My physics teacher made me hate the subject so much and because of that I didn't really understand what I was studying. I think everyone has a unique personality even those who are in the last class. Even students with disciplinary problems have feelings and emotions. Will I ignore these group of people and stereotype them as failures who will not succeed in life? But most importantly will I have the patience when I face such people?

I just can't imagine what teacher I would be. Will I be inspiring? Will I be destructive? There are just so many questions. I can only answer them as time goes by.

Today was a fun day. Sometime our relatives can make us laugh and laugh. We had our reunion lunch in Klang and we have it every year. My uncle told us that he had to take his dog to the vet. He had to fill up a card which needed all the dog's particulars. On the space where he needed to write the dog's name, he wrote the name Dino s/o Donno...Mike and I couldn't stop laughing..heheh..Indeed it's so impossible to know the father of a dog, especially if its not a pedigree.

And our little Miss Debbie entertained us with her new stunt. While she was lying down, she was holding her milk bottle with her two feet (not her hands!) and drinking from it...Who knows, one day she might be a gymnast! And she always says 'WOW!' when she likes something..

I thank God for happy times, when we can all laugh together. I thank God for sad times, when we can encourage and comfort one another. I thank God for stressful times, when we can lean on one another. I thank God for trials, so we can can be stronger. I thank God...that I can depend on Him for everything.

An old year has gone, a new year has arrived

BUT
I don't feel so excited...
I didn't wish to feel like that but..
I still can't let go of my feelings..the feelings still want to stay in me but..
I've got to let go and move on because..
I can't continue to live my life always feeling disappointed..
God has a better plan for me..
So I try to remind myself ..
It's hard..
To just think I've got to let go..
Will there be any hope left?
Just one more chance?
It's hard to let go of these emotions..

So I've started my classes...

I've decided to drop my Chemistry subject after knowing that its very tough from my seniours. I don't want to take a hard subject for one of my luar jabatan courses because my main subjects are tough enough. So for my luar jabatan subjects, I plan to take a geology and a geography subject next semester.

I'm slowly beginning to like this new semester and it really takes time. I want to thank God for what had happened today. You see, I went in slightly late for my Asas Falsafah & Pendidikan class(forgot to ask my friend to keep a seat for me,silly me) because I was in the computer lab trying to change my subjects. So..I had to sit on the stairs with some others. And then the lecturer came is and she told all those who were sitting on the stairs to leave the lecture hall and join the other class...Oh no!... If there's no more space then I had to drop the subject. But then suddenly, a girl from behind me told me that there's en extra seat. Thank God!. I was the only one from the rest who did not need to go out. What a day.

And I think my biology lecturer is a Christian because she said ' Hallulujah, thank God' after saying that we only discover what is there on earth because we humans cannot make those things(such as our human cell, plants, etc) She's been so encouraging to us during our first lesson. And she said that God has a plan for putting us here in UM even though we may not like it. Since we're placed here, we must do our best in everything and enjoy the life here. See, our lectures won't be so boring if we have lecturers like her.

Semester kedua, Sesi 2005/2006

I'm having the mood to update my blog which doesn't come so frequently.

It's after 12am, a new day, a new semester. I'm really trying to be optimistic here because I really don't have the mood to go back to uni. Well, life still goes on,rite?. I'm satisfied with my previous semester's results. Really, it's by God's strength and His mercy that I got those results. Quite sad because I don't have anymore Geology subjects. I really enjoyed studying it, suprisingly, and also because of much encouragement from my sister.

So this new semester, I'm taking the following papers:
TITAS II
Biologi Populasi
Biologi Sel
Amali Biologi
Prinsip-prinsip Kimia
Asas Falsafah Dan Pendidikan di Malaysia
Perancangan Ko-Kurikulum Dalam Sains

I commit everything to God...

Move in me

A very meaningful song by Michael W. Smith

I am only human
Struggling to find
Confidence in all that I believe
You are only holy
You are love divine
And you have said to ask and I'll recieve
So I have come to pray
That you will come and fill
The hunger here inside me to grow
Stronger in the faith
There's a longing and a need
To have you ever closer
Come fill me

Cause when you move in me
It's like a symphony
The timeless melody
That soothes my soul
Though silent I can tell
That you're alive and well
Cause I can feel you move
In me

What they try to tell me
Is that Your is false
And faith is just a wayI choose to feel
And that there was no meaning
To You upon the cross
And I should reach for something that is real
And when those words are said
The questions in me start
And I don't have any answers
Until I stop thinking with my head
And start listening to my heart
And there I find my assurance
I tell them

Chorus

What I was thinking while cycling around Taman Seri

What happens after we die?How is heaven like?What is it like seeing God face to face?We won't live on Earth anymore. I'm just wondering how different it would be. No suffering. No pain. No disappointments. No sadness. Everything that was accomplished on Earth will be useless. Our success. Our titles. Our wealth. What will be of worth, that will last for eternity? Are we living our lives to the fullest? Do we think we are living our life to the fullest? How do we know? Are we doing things that will have an eternal value?

Christmas........

Christmas...has been quite lonely,
Amelia is not here for the first time,
Timmy & Aida,
The two brats Daniel and Andrew plus the little angel Laura are not around,
It's so different,
BUT,
on a happier side,Mike & Wuey Ping with thier mischivious daughter were here,
Debbie really entertained us a lot, I'm so amused by her!

This Christmas, I pondered on the grace of God. How He so freely gives us grace which we do not deserve and we so often take it for granted...what we do does not count in order for us to be saved..God sent Jesus Christ to save us while we were yet sinners.I thank God that I can have Him as my comfort when life seems so hard. Life can be hard and I'm faced with some disapointments and challenges sometimes.

This Christmas, friendships were renewed. I thank God for friends who are there to encourage one another to grow in the Lord and to cheer us up when we're sad. I thank God for some close and special friends who will always be there when I'm in need, to be crazy enough to make me laugh like a crazy person :-) I'm so grateful and thankful.

This Christmas, I am touched by the evangelistic meetings we had. The 1st one in Chodoi-I pray that the hearts of the people will be touched by the message and that soon they will receive the gift of salvation freely.
The 2nd meeting in TPG-I'm so excited to see so many people who turned up even the Indians. I thank God that our 'Saturday Sunday School' has many children. I pray that as the seeds have been planted in these young children, it will grow deeply and be nourished by the Word of God. I'm so happy to see thier enthusiasm to learn more about a God who was unknown to them before.
The 3rd meeting in the orang asli village. I'm so touched to see so many people esp little children. They were so excited to see so many people (and so much food!). I'm specially touched to see many of my former orang asli students. Surprisingly they remember me! I pray that they will open up their hearts to receive the good news which they've never heard before, to understand that there is a God who loves them so much.
Finally, the last meeting on the 24th Dec. I thank God for giving me the opportunity to take part in it and I really enjoyed it so much! The performances were good and especially the sketch(although I cannot understand a bit what it means). I thank God dat many people turned up and maybe God has a plan for them to come and I pray dat someday(soon), they will come to God.

This year's Christmas has been so meaningful. I'm really am so overjoyed! Honour & Glory be unto God!

For unto us a child is born,
to us a son is given,
and the government shall be on His shoulders.
And He will be called Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God,
Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace.

Time really flies. In just 3 weeks time I will be facing my first major exam in uni.
Last weekend was quite a busy one for me but I'm so glad I can go back home almost every weekend and serve in my church. I realise that God wants me to serve Him here. Over the past few years serving in my church has been rather difficult for me because of the language barrier and there were times(many times) when I've prayed and ask God why did He put me in this type of situation. I felt so out of place. I shouldn't be here. I should have been elsewhere.

We want things to be so easy.We don't like to face a slightest discomfort in our life. I realised that we can serve God despite of any barriers. He wants us not to be easily distracted by the discomfort or problems that come our way. Just serve. I serve God not only because I love Him but because He first loved me. I serve because I have a hope which is eternal life. I serve because I believe in Him and am filled with an inexpressible joy, for I am receiving the goal of my faith, the salvation of my soul. I serve so that God will be glorified and people will come to know of His love.

Last Sunday was my third time teaching in Sunday School. It was quite an experiece I can tell you. I was telling those boys about Paul's second missionary journey, about how God didn't allow Paul and Silas to go to Asia and Bithynia because God had other plans for them. The moment I mentioned the name Barnabas(who didn't follow Paul in this second journey), the whole atmosphere started to change. Those fellas started to make fun of that name. Other names such as 'Bar-banana' and 'Barnabas-Banana' started to come out from their mouths. They would go on and on and on. It was so distracting! Well, I hope that despite of the slight(or major!) distraction, those kids were able to understand the whole message. Boys will still be boys. I really hope they will change once they go on to secodary school. But anyway it was quite fun teaching them. Hope they will outgrow their childish ways.I wonder when it will happen.

I will praise you, O LORD, with all my heart.
I will tell of all your wonders
I will be glad and rejoice in you,
I will sing praise to your name,O Most High.
Psalm 9:1-2

Today's ramblings

Today I attended PERKEB, the cf of UKM.Four reasons why I went: Firsty I wanted see some of my church members who are in UKM, actually many of the are there.I'm the only one who chose UM.Secondly,I wanted to see how their cf is like. Their meetings are conducted in Malay and it was so refreshing to see the East Malaysians together with the West Malaysians worshipping God.We even sang a Dusun song! I really pray and hope that more Sabahans and Sarawakians in UM will gather together and serve in the cf.Thirdly, I wanted to go home( my dad takes me home faithfully every friday) and this brings me to the fourth reason, my dad had to speak in their cf, so I had to follow him to UKM....so complicated!~..But I thank God for giving me this wonderful experience which I don't get so often!

'Not to us, O Lord, not to us
but to your name be the glory,
because of your love and faithfulness.

I read Psalm 115:1 and I'm truly reminded that whatever that I do, I do it all to glorify God and not myself. So whenever we're serving in our church or in our cf, let us be reminded that we are serving God and may the things that we do in our daily life glorify God.Finally let us not forget that our God is a loving and faithful God.

...God is love. This is how God showed His love among us. He sent His one and only Son into the world that we might live through Him. This is love: not the we loved God, but that he loved us and sent His son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins..... 1 John 4:8-10

Remember

I really like this song by Harry Nilsson...it's quite a sad song though..

Long ago, far away
Life was clear, close your eyes
Remember is a place from long ago
Remember filled with everything you know
Remember when you're sad and feelin' down
Remember turn around
Remember life is just a memory
Remember close your eyes and you can see
Remember think of all that life can be
Remember..
Dream love is only in a dream
Remember..
Remember life is never as it seems
Dream-Long ago, far away
Life was clear, close your eyes

Wow!~

Since the last post, so many things happened in my life..but I think I've experienced so much of God's mercy and grace.Life has not been comfortable at times but are we expected to be comfortable all the time? I think we can only grow once we have gone through trials and difficulties because then we can only know the true meaning of hardship. I've learnt to fully trust in God and not just to 'half trust' where there are doubts but to FULLY trust in Him. There are times when I just feel like giving up on a certain problem but after knowing that the problem is not a problem but rather a challenge, it's easier for me solve it...this reminds me of a friend from RBS who once said to me "it's a blessing, not a burden"(if you're reading this, you know who you are!) I feel that it's important for us to submit outselves to God and to allow Him to work in us.

...hmmm....This semester is going to end pretty soon and I've got so much more to read especially for biology and geology. Something that I did not expect earlier: I really like geology so much! My mum told me that a geologist in a family is already enough so we don't need another one :-) Anyway,I'm reminded of God's calling that is teaching. Teaching was never in my mind during my secondary school days but when I was in Form 6 I started to ponder about my future, what was God's will for me. I prayed. From then on I realised that teaching was for me and when I was a temporary teacher, I really enjoyed teaching. It made me realise how much I can give to these students and the impact that I can have on them but most important is that I can tell them about God's love.

On another topic, I think it's really hard for a parent to see their son or daughter(especially daughters) leaving home after getting married. It's hard for me to accept the fact that my sister is going to get married in less than 2 months time. It was much easier for me when my brothers got married but I think it's because I'm much closer to my sister. We won't be seeing her every weekend and during Christmas. Yup, it's hard to let go of something that you cherish a lot but that is how life is. You let go and you move on.